Vin & Min

It's been a while.

2008-11-01T01:01:00.000+08:00

If I only had one wish, in this one life, granted among the infinite wishes upon the stars, I'd wish for you back. Things haven't changed one bit. I'm still here, standing, perhaps almost kneeling, while waiting. I can't help it. Sometimes it hurts when it feels like I'm insignificant to you. I'd risk almost everything to be with you again. Maybe wishing that I could find that one bit of you that I could spark back into flames for me. But right now, maybe that's not possible. Let's see where my destiny leads me. But for now, this long winding road is where I'm walking, no straying away from you, nor my career path. God, help me be strong for what's to come...Anyways, Happy 19th Birthday to you. Although you might even read this much later...May your wishes come true today.

I care, I miss, I love, for every bit of you, regardless of everything.

2007-06-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

Even if I have to wait months, years for it to come back, I will be patient and wait for it. I'm willing to place all the wishes worth wishing in my life, just for this one thing to come true. Hope things will be okay again soon. I know to some, I may seem like an idiot, but, this is what I've decided. Mugen-Wishes, will now go on hiatus, until this one wish of this idiotic person, comes true.

それ　じゃ、We'll start blogging again, I hope, someday.

ゆめ。。。

2007-06-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

Some people live their lives chasing their dreams. I'm chasing mine right now. Whether wind, hail, or storm, nothing will stand in my way. Some people chase dreams that are a little harder to achieve. I'd try to understand, if I could. But...my own deafening logic will chase all that understanding away. Bearing the responsibility as the eldest, I have shunned away one of my older dreams...something that seems to be difficult to reach, plus, it would not do my family any good, at least thats the conclusion that I've come to at this point in time. I would've abandoned almost everything, and leave everything behind to pursue this dream of mine. Haha, silly, don't you think? But its true, there are a lot of people like the old me out there... I dunno, at this moment, I'm trying to find something else to chase after. Something that I may enjoy doing, as well as something that lets me fulfill my responsibility as the eldest son, which is why I am here, doing what I'm doing, and have been doing for the past few months. Now, other than my family, I've got another responsibility in my hands now. Even though nobody ever says it, but I somehow...feel that I'm responsible for Min. She's got her own dreams, although I may not completely agree 100% with her, but at least, I'll try to support her a 120%. My only fear is being left alone, and shunned aside once more. So I beg to Min, at least, if you're still chasing that same dream, don't leave me out of your life..or anything like that. But know that I will be your backbone, as I've been for the past 2 years or less. Its not wrong to dream, dreams do come true, and sacrifices will be needed. I hope you will not sacrifice the wrong things, just to achieve that dream, I trust you won't, at least. Well, just want to let out some thoughts. Good Night...I love you.

Hmm

2007-06-03T15:25:00.000+08:00

Emo things aside, I've finished my first semester. Yay! Lol, see you guys back in Brunei...

Well..

2007-05-31T00:21:00.000+08:00

Min did suggest to shut down this site, but I didn't want that to happen. This site has followed both me and her through our relationship for almost 2 years, just a few days after we got together. Honestly, if you ask me right now, I dunno how things are between me and Min anymore. Is there any movement? Any progress? Probably I'm the one being distanced. I feel far away, afraid to talk to her now, afraid of a lot of things. I'm doing my best, I don't want to lose her again. Same time I don't want her to let me go so easily. Things are rigid, things are okay, I don't know what to say. It's like, I'm chatting with her online, and things are simply..normal-ish, but the truth is, there is a weird feeling that pierces my heart, and its disturbing me. Maybe all I need is to see her again, and then I will feel better. Truth be told, it's really lonely here, seeing all other couples, even when I have my friends around, they're simply...friends. Different from what you call a spouse or lover. I don't, and I can't love them as much as I love Min...Sure, once or twice a day, we have a couple of laughs. I'm missing out on a lot of things in Min's life..she's even gone through the top 8 of her school's singing competition, 8 out of 36 people..and she's one of them, and I had no clue. If I were back there, I would, but yeah..I made the choice already. So boo-hoo. I'm just a little lost and confused, hoping to be cheered on, understood, just by her. It doesn't really matter if not many others don't understand my efforts, or don't cheer me on, the one person that I want, is seemingly too occupied in her life. I guess she earned her space, and I did mine, with this as consequence. I'm not too comfortable with this much space...I have nothing to fill in. Its merely emptiness. Sigh, well, I lost 60 pieces of sketches today, and I have to hand it in a few hours, thats during class, and I've done 42 in the past 3 hours, now finishing up I guess...My final presentation should be on Saturday, and I'll be back in Brunei on the 12th. But just my luck that on the 18th, school would have started. And here I thought that I'd be able to enjoy that one day that I'm looking forward to so much since I left Brunei...You know, I look around and I see understanding when I watch my two friends (couples)...I felt as if I've lost that..after some time. I guess I have to understand and comply, without regrets and complains, that Min is unable to contact me..due to certain reasons. Pain pain pain. Hollow hollow hollow. I hope this gap fills in when I return. Now that I see it, 4 years is a long time...what if she can't come here? What if she has to go elsewhere? Oh my..I'm just too terrified now. Anyways, just had to let out my paranoia, I hope you won't be angry or anything Min...I hope you can understand. Well, good night. Back to work for me..Wish me luck. And congratulations to Min for making the final 8 for the singing contest once more.

Okaa-sannn~...

2007-05-14T15:04:00.000+08:00

Well, life isn't easy, like what most people would say. Life is what you make of it I guess. Sometimes it can be shitty, especially when you're on the receiving end of shit. That holds true even more when same shit happens again and again, despite the promises that people have made, and the bonds that are supposedly solid and unbreakable become broken bonds. Well, you build life on that, I guess. You can dwell in the past, and look to the future, or just simply stay in the present, unaffected by your past, or future. Pros, cons. Thats what make people...people, I suppose. Some try hard, some don't bother trying, some pretend to be trying. Some are giving their all, while some merely ignore the fact that their lives are being supported by so many people trying their best to make them and others happy. This and that, bla bla bla. So many things. Some people give many excuses, which are void, merely because those excuses are just their one ticket out of certain things. Things that use to matter don't matter anymore. Break a sweat. What the heck. Anyways, its mother's day. Happy Mother's Day to all mothers, grandmothers and great-grandmothers. Wish my dear mother, and mother (in law to be) plus grandmother all the best, have a nice day, and thank you for putting us where we are today. I suppose its useless for me to hope Min will blog here anytime soon. I'll just do my best to keep this blog alive. Well, Ciao.

2007-05-05T01:31:00.001+08:00

So I've been living in this world for 17, I've seen people come and go,
things happen in my life, people changing, I've felt pain, happiness,
sadness, evil, jealousy, love. I'm only a speck of the world's ever
increasing population. I've done things, things in my life, that may or may
not affect the life of others. I dunno, recently I've been looking at the
world and life at a totally different angle. Maybe because I've finally
escaped that 'nest', called home, away from my usual luxuries and comfort.
I've seen a portion of the world now. I can say its different. Its
competitive, difficult, complex, challenging, thrilling, fun...only if you
see it that way. I've been able to express myself more now, be more daring,
something I lacked before. I can speak my mind if I choose to, and do things
in the public which I normally wouldn't have done (no, not dance naked). I'm
changing of course, in a different kind of way. I look the same, maybe
gained a little weight or lost or perhaps gained a pimple or scar here and
there. I might've grown taller, but I'm not too sure of that. Well,
basically the inner me is changing, in a way or two. I look back, and I
realize, it felt like only yesterday, I received my O Level result slip,
like it was only yesterday, I saw my PMB results online, like only yesterday
I had only dreamt of escaping my 'nest', wanting to go to the United States
to be with someone whom I once loved, only yesterday I found out so many
things about God, only yesterday I held the hand, and kissed the cheeks of
the one I fell deeply in love with...So many things, but they seem to have
gone by so quickly. I'm now in a University, probably not so far away from
where I use to be in distance that can be measured, but my heart, my soul,
its not always here. I'm always dreaming of home. I'm always dreaming of the
old times. I dream of the people who have made me the person I am today, be
they my friend or foes now. They may remember me, or they may have forgotten
that I have once played a part in their own existance. People change, people
try, people give up, people do lots of stuff. What have you done? Who made
you you? Do you remember everyone's faces and their smiles, or what they've
done in your life? I doubt it. I can hardly remember half of the people I
use to know, and to think, I was once so sad about leaving them behind, but
now I can't remember them much. All thats left is a footprint in the sand,
waiting to be washed away by the waves. Memories fade away, and new ones are
made. I'm slowly taking steps toward what I envision to be my future,
although maybe things will never go as I fully planned it to be. I've made
it this far, and I won't give up that easily, although I may have slacked a
little here and there. Lol, sorry, so many random things eh? I dunno what
else to say now..all I know is, I've been studying a lot of psychology,
culture and all that lately..all part of assignments. Social Culture, what
people think of themselves, denial, empathy, egotism and all that shit.
Well, I guess thats all for now...will blog again soon. Time is
ever-precious, appreciate whatever time someone makes for you. They are
taking time off their own lives, off from their duties and responsibilities
for you. Don't let it go to waste for them and for you. Well, put it simply,
shit happens, sometimes I just seem to be at the end thats receiving shit.
Fix it, it breaks again. Thats how fragile lives are, I guess it depends on
how you pick them up and fix it again, and who you fixing it with...Feelings
are hard to fight. See everyone till the next entry, just trying to keep
this blog alive.

Phoenix Down

2007-03-31T00:33:00.000+08:00

Final Harry Potter book out soon, I'd like to have it. Might pre-order.

Life in college is hectic, just received my final integrated project few days ago, that makes hell for me.

I recently failed my Life Drawing test in class, scoring 18/40, just because I didn't spend enough time measuring the position of objects and all that. Will work harder on the final project.

I'm being pressured up to 200%, and I'm exerting all that I can, doing everything I can just to finish my work, getting satisfactory marks. Having the need to redo at least 10++++ designs.

I'm feeling miserable.

I'm tired.

I lack sleep.

I have to save as much money as I can, though thats almost virtually impossible.

I need to have some fun.

I'm falling sick often.

I'm feeling lonely.

I need a stable internet connection.

I need a new blanket.

I need to lose my pimples, weight, and gain some height.

I need to lose stress.

I need something to fall back on.

I'm bored....Good Night. I just got home. Went to Lowyat to get a scanner/printer/photocopy. Rm330 flew away. Went for sushi. Rm110 flew away. Lol. Its hard to be thrifty.

Happy 21st Month dear!

2007-03-19T15:37:00.000+08:00

Hooooo~ XD 21 Months together liao! Happy 21 months dear!

Here's a little something for Min!

I will love you more each and everyday,
Eventhough we've run out of things to say.
I will continue loving you on and on,
I assure you I won't leave you alone.
I will love you till my life is over,
I know I've been struck by love fever.
I will love you even if you don't love me anymore,
No matter how hurt, how sore.
I love you now more than I loved you then,
I will write another poem, when the time comes again.

Wahey, for more poetic goodies, visit my own blog. Hope Min blogs here. =)

I'll see you on our 2nd year anniversary! XD

2007-03-12T17:50:00.001+08:00

Yes, we're a vain vain pair. XD Anyways, the final pic is truly the final picture I took in Brunei. Piggie Min. XD Love you lots!

Happy Valentine's Day.

2007-02-14T21:48:00.000+08:00

Wai~Happy Valentine's Day. Sorry Min for not being able to be there with you in Brunei to celebrate our 2nd Valentine's ever. I'm doing fine in KL, and all that. Today hmm, well, lots of people in campus received flowers, cards, bears, and all those kinds of things. Kinda made me a little envious. Wished I was back there just for this day. Well anyways, today we were divided into groups, to design our very own instruments, using recycled materials only. Well, for me, I designed my own drum set, using bucket, rings, bowl, chopsticks, and several other things. We were required to perform a song with what we made, to make sure we didn't just make those things for show. Hmm, my group, we performed our very own version of DoReMi..the Doe a Deer, song plus Shalala, the umm..Shalalalala, Shalala in the Morning..etc. Techno Remix. There was about 12 of us in the start, but some of them went home, uninterested. Yeah, went home, it ain't school, so they left when they felt like it. Left us with about, 8 or 9 people. Umm, there were 5 groups in total. And my group made it to 2nd place. Top 3 required to perform again this coming Friday on Entertainment Day, haha. Unfortunately for us. Well, overall, this was a really bitter Valentine's for me. Not much to enjoy. And of course, I didn't go to the annual 'Single's Party' for single guys and girls to meet up and get hooked up, something organized by the seniors. My leg hurts, since I fell over today, sitting down drumming for too long. Lost all the blood in one leg, and stumbled backwards several feet. Hmm, thats basically it I guess. I might send some presents back to Min through my mom when they arrive here several days later. 4 Days to CNY, and 4 more days to our 1 year 8 months-anniversary. Congrats~*mwakz and hugz Min* Miss you lots~Love you lots~

Vin is on flight...

2007-02-02T18:50:00.000+08:00

'Why do people appreciate only when it's gone?'
Something that I wrote few years ago, tho it's in chinese.
"為何人們總要等到失去後才會懂得珍惜?" For those people who understand chinese, it's how I wrote it. In traditional chinese.

Vin's gone for now, but not forever, at least he will still be back once he's free. I just went to sent him off. Went to Gadong, to get my externer hard disk from Donut (Reggie), and then waited for bus, but none came. So Vin called his dad to pick us up in Gadong, ended up his dad asked us to go to the back entrance of the Mall and wait for him. So we did, waite awhlile until it was almost going to rain. Went back to his house, packed something and transfered something from his laptop to my externer hard disk (Heroes.), drank coffee that made by his mom (drank with biscuit~ Yuummm Yuumm~ XD), then took some pictures then leave to air port.

Ang and Teck was already there when we arrived air port~ I was so surprised that they arrived that early. Then some people like larrie, no transport to come, too bad but what to do, as long as pray for his safe! XD. Maxie and Goya have to go to Tae Kwon Do pratice, Aaron started his christian lesson today, Vin's mom have to watch home so didn't manage to see him off. Then we went to check in for his things, air tickets and all that. Then we sat down, talked awhile, saw Manzy and Josephine came when Vin's dad was about to go to pick Goya and Aaron up. Later on Christofer came, gave Vin pair of drumstrick that he like or always wanted. That was really nice of Christofer, tho he's already a nice person, hehehe ^^ And OH you know What? SENG CAME!!! It's such a miracle seeing him!! Lol I thought it was an illusion! Heh, just kidding! But it was really surprising seeing him since we haven't heard his new for like, centuries? O_o"

Went up to express trying to order some food, ended up we were all out side talking and I was crazily taking pictures around! XD After awhile we went in, Burt came and gave Vin the mouse and gone, but I didn't see any of Burt's SHADOW!!! -_____-" We ordered food and sat down there talking, I doubt anyone would be noisier than us! XD We're like laughing and talking and playing around there, then later Vin's dad came, took some pictures again. I was like SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sad when it was his turn to go. We all hugged him, saying good byes until we can't see him anymore.

Man it's like only almost 4pm when we left from his house, then so fast he had to go... I wonder what would my life be without him. He's the only one always right beside me when I needed help, always be with me no matter what crap is happening. During his GCE exam period, he tried everything to take care of me, at the same time he has to care for his exams. How I wish I would be so caring like him. Anyways, I'm already missing you now, a lot a lot, hope you will have save trip to KL. All the best, take care darling... Be good =)

Sore wa "Mugen Wishes" desu~! =>

ByeBye

2007-02-01T10:43:00.000+08:00

Unfortunately no, not continuing my story this time. Just another story though, advancing. Its our story. Min and I have gone through a lot of rough situations, close to ending this story of ours, and whatnot. But at the same time, we've shared bitter, sweet and um I guess even sour memories. I'll be leaving Min behind in Brunei this Friday, but I'll continue to do my best for her in KL. Corny as it may sound to some people, as I'm not very good with stuff like so and so. Lol, anyways, I'll be missing her a lot, and I hope she would too. With this entry, I dedicate my love to her. Not that its a big thing...Hahaha, anyways, thats all for now. My story continues once I can find the time to blog in KL. Ciao.

Cont'd Story. Still no Title XD

2007-01-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

*continued from where I left off*

"You're...You're.." Ginsuke stuttered as he fell back and moved backwards in fear.

"Good, since you already know, this makes things easier. It seems you know that I am..." a male voice spoke gently as it took its first step into Ginsuke's room. The cold gust of wind died out, and there was silence. It stared at Ginsuke, and then smiled gently at him.

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU?" Ginsuke suddenly yelled, breaking the silence. He stood up, and picked up his bokuto. (Wooden sword, not the bamboo one) Ginsuke was once a skilled and well-known kendoist across Osaka, although recently because he has been occupied by college, he has stopped going to practice.

"I take that back. You're an idiot," it spoke once more frome the shadows, its true identity, unknown. It took a single step and the light revealed its appearance, white Ginsuke, in turn, took several more steps backwards, awestruck.

He stood there, about four feet tall, with long light green eyes and hair, wearing jeans that were stylishly ripped, and a white button-up shirt. He held a bag of arrows on his left hand, and on his right hand, a crossbow. And the most surprising thing of all, that shocked Ginsuke to the point that he dropped his bokuto, were the two wings that this person had behind his back.

Ginsuke knelt down on the ground, and stared at the other person now, who was really annoyed by this.

"Ginsuke?" the person spoke, as he raised his hands into the air and the bow and arrow disappeared from his hands. Ginsuke didn't notice this at all.

"Wha-? What are you? Who are you? Why are you here?" Ginsuke asked, as he picked up his bokuto once more, although he did not dare point it at the person this time, afraid he might anger him.

"Put that thing away, will you? Before you poke someone's eye out. Listen you moron, I may not look like it, but I've been sent here to help you out," he spoke once more, pointing to Ginsuke's bokuto.

"Sent here to help me? What for? I don't need any help, and you haven't answered all my questions yet," Ginsuke shot back, not very pleased with being called a moron.

"You've got a terrible love life, alright? Heaven knows. I know. Although I was most reluctant to come here and help an idiot like you..." he said once more, taking a seat on Ginsuke's bed.

"Wha-Wait, could you STOP the personal insults? Okay, first calling me an idiot, and then a moron, and then talking about my...er unsuccessful love life, and then calling me an idiot again," Ginsuke snapped.

"Fine. Okay. If you haven't already guessed, I'm cupid. Angel that helps out people with love problems and all that? Good, you don't seem surprised. Call it whatever you must, but your love life SUCKS, alright? I wouldn't be here trying to help you, if it wasn't for the fact that I want to get promoted..." the angel said once more, standing up as well. "And how rude of me, I have not introduced myself...Name's Aori," he added once more, giving a small bow, his long green hair falling free.

Ginsuke, completely speechless, simply stood there staring at Aori. After a minute or so, he finally decided to speak up. "So...how will you be helping me?" Ginsuke asked. "And where the hell will you be staying?"

"Thats easy, I'll hang around for a while, and wait till destiny plays his part and lets you find your other half. Of course, even if I know who it is, I won't tell you. I will definately be playing a part in your future relationships," Aori answered as he made his wings disappear.

"Wait, did you say...relationshipS?" Ginsuke questioned once more, grinning broadly. "Oh I think this will be very interesting..." he said to himself, grinning even more broadly, imagining himself being surrounded by many beautiful girls from college.

"Don't flatter yourself, there won't be that many girls after you. Anyways, I'm going to be bunking with you for the time being. If anyone asks, I'm an exchange student from France. Good Night." Aori said finally, closing his eyes as he grabs a pillow and wraps his arms around it.

"Wait..one more!" Ginsuke said out loud.

"What is it?" Aori answered sleepily. "It's been a long journey, and I need sleep."

"WHY ON EARTH DID YOU HAVE TO BREAK MY WINDOW OPEN?" Ginsuke roared at Aori, who simply feigned deafness.

"Didn't you think it was a cool entrance? Don't worry, I'll fix it in the morning." Aori simply said, falling asleep, leaving a very angry Ginsuke there standing.

"WHAT? HEY! And what the hell are you doing on my bed? Where am I going to sleep!!!???" Ginsuke shouted in a frustrated tone, only noticing that his bed was taken by this complete stranger. His voice echoed out into the night, and Osaka wouldn't definately be the same after this night...

To be Continued...~

OOC: Opinions? Lol.

Happy Anniversay!!! XD

2007-01-18T18:36:00.000+08:00

Happy Anniversary my Darling Vin!! XD
Yes! Today is our 17 monthes anniversary~ Sorry for didn't manage to spend the time with you today due to I have my tuition class at 4 and I had my afternoon class today. Gomenne~ .__. By the way Vin is leaving to KL soon, I think I'll be missing him real lot~ Lalalala~ T x T Anyways, all the best!! ^-^

Testing : 1, 2, 3...

2007-01-14T18:33:00.000+08:00

*sigh* "Another failure today..." sighed a tall young man as he slashed off a picture of a girl using a marker pen. He was lying down on his bed as he held onto a piece of paper, with a list of the most beautiful girls in college with their pictures.

*knock knock* There was a sudden knock on the door.

"Who's there?" the young man asked lazily as he put his arms over his eyes, sighing once more.

"Mai here~!" a cheery female voice said from outside the room.

"Right, come in then.." he said as he ruffled his long hair and sat up, hiding the piece of paper under his pillow.

"I've come to return your Notes, Ginsuke-kun," the girl known as Mai said, as she walked towards the man, Ginsuke, and returned his notebook to him.

He stood up and placed the notebook back in his bookshelf where it belongs.

"Ara?" the girl said, as she noticed the paper that was earlier hidden by Ginsuke, sticking out from under his pillow.

"What is it?" Ginsuke asked, as he sat down on his bed once more.

Mai stared at his face for a moment.

"What? Something on my face?" Ginsuke snapped, feeling slightly uneasy.

"Araaaa? Did another date go wrong today, Gin-chan?" Mai asked teasingly.

*sigh* "Guess I couldn't hide it from you..." he replied quietly and bowed his head low.

"Tell me about it!" Mai said excited as she sat down on the floor, looking up at him. It was like a story-telling session that she would have to attend everyday. Ginsuke wasn't particularly lucky with the ladies, no matter how good looking he was.

"Well..she didn't like me having ear-rings..." Ginsuke started, but the rest of that sentence was drowned by Mai's squeals of disbelief. For Ginsuke, it was also like an everyday ritual he practices, telling his failures to his younger sister.

Eventually, Ginsuke finished telling Mai how disastrous his date went today.

"Whaaaat? That's unbelievable! She's such a-a-a..." Mai wanted to say, but all of the sudden Ginsuke's room burst open and a woman was standing there, holding what looked like a kitchen knife.

"Yaaaa! Kaa-san!" Mai screeched out loud, apparently shocked her mother had found her out so soon.

"You left the soup boiling, and now we have no soup. Also, the burnt fish is now so black it looks like one of those Black-Americans we see on TV everyday!! What do you expect us to have for dinner now??" their mother yelled continuously without stopping to breathe.

"Gomennnnnneeeee Kaa-san!" Mai quickly apologized and dashed out of the room, going out to buy some take-out dinner, which was also a daily tradition.

"I hope she remembers to bring home some fried rice..." Ginsuke thought to himself as his sister ran out the door.

"You! Miyamaru Ginsuke!! Where were you the whole day?" Mrs. Miyamaru screamed, as she turned to his son, pointing the kitchen knife at him.

Ginsuke backed away slightly on his bed, as his mother approached him.

"Umm..I-I was..."

Ginsuke had to quickly think up a lie.

"I was out at the Town Hall donating blood today!" he spat out without thinking.

"Ahhh, thats my boy, doing such nice things...but next time, don't go out so much, okay?" Mrs. Miyamaru said with a much gentler tone now, as she closed Ginsuke's door, heading down to the living room to watch her J-drama.

*sigh* "Phew...I don't get it, mom doesn't like me going out a lot..eventhough I'm already in my second year at college," Ginsuke thought to himself, as he lied down once more, closing his eyes.

*Buzzzzzzzz*

A strange sound started eminating from somewhere.

"What the..?" Ginsuke said to himself, and then shot out of bed, trying to locate the source of that sound.

Althought, it wasn't exactly coming from inside his room...

*Bang!*

"An explosion?"

*BANG!*

Ginsuke's windows burst open, and there was a strong breeze blowing into the room. Ginsuke turned around and tried to close his windows when he saw...

"Wha-?"

"Oh my god..you..you're.."

Ginsuke would never forget what he saw come into his room through the window...

TO BE CONTINUED...

Hmm?

2007-01-13T09:33:00.000+08:00

Haha...am I a good friend? Am I a good person? Have I been loyal? Am I a good son? Lol, I begin to question myself now. I don't know what I'm worth...Who am I? Tool? Friend? Plaything? Haha, well..some people just underestimate feelings of others. Ahhhhh...frustrated. I hate my net. It comes on and off. Ah, there its off again. Can't even download Bleach 110 properly. Hope its done by tonight. Lol, I thirst for attention...I guess? Esp. from that someone, who isn't here right now...

Eh? Lol..

2007-01-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

Ignore my last entry. Was feeling like crap then, I guess I'm much better now. Well, toodles, still waiting for someone else to blog here. I've been doing so for months alone. Lol, well, see everyone else around~I think there is an outing this Friday? Haha..

Pitiful..

2007-01-09T20:29:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it feels as if I'm like a miserable and pitiful existance that is left aside when not needed and only called upon if there is a need to be fulfilled. Don't just toss me aside and ignore me. I deserve as much attention as any other person. Lol, ignore this post. Just feeling 'left aside' or rather, alone? Some people ought to watch they say...or think before they hurt other's feelings.

Another Year Gone By

2007-01-01T16:06:00.000+08:00

Hmm, its been both a good and bad year for me and Min, in terms of our relationship that is. Although I have been proud to say that we have never really argued to the length of nearly breaking up, well, that happened just quite recently. Note : Nearly. I was on the verge of letting go because I was being weak and stupid. All in all, its alright now, I suppose. I hope we'll keep going strong in the new year. This year..well, lots of things happened, fights, breaking down, pulling each other up, many memories indeed. And no matter how I've wanted to let go at some points, I've been clutching my fist tight to keep holding on, haps' to the point where it bleeds. That was a metaphor, lol. Hmm, without Min, I don't think I could've come this far...really. Some people look at a relationship as a relief, something different from friends, to do things that you don't do with friends with the one you 'love' or 'like' in certain cases. I guess its the same with me, but I really do cherish the times I spend with Min, more than anything. It matters to me what she thinks of me, what she tells me, and what she says to me...all that. I really really do love her. I hope she feels the same, if not more. I will be leaving Brunei for KL in a couple of weeks, and Min will be here, but no matter where I go, in my heart, I will carry memories of us around, and if I were to give my heart to her, I hope she would take better care of it, this time around, and not do anything to hurt it. Corny as it may sound, I really mean every bit of it. Hmm, well enough of that, my headache is getting worse. Good night then! May 2007 hold more prospects for us! God Bless our love!

Merry Christmas

2006-12-26T19:32:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas my dear Min. =) Love you lots!

Happy 18 Months to Dear~

2006-12-18T16:06:00.000+08:00

Hahaha, I am once again here blogging. Forgive me for my previous post, but I wasn't feeling too up up up that time. Well, just got off the phone with my dearest Midori no Ringo, for those who don't know that means Green Apple, and now I suppose, she's asleep, if not on the phone again, lol.

Hmm, it should be exactly or slightly over 12 right now, so yeah, Happy 18 Monthsary to Min and me. A long way indeed we've come...and although things may seem a little bad right now, but I am sure they will get better in due time. Incidentally, it is also my little brother, Aaron's birthday today. So Happy birthday to him too. 5 years old now. Hahaha, my do they grow or what?

So let me share with all of you a story :

Once upon a time there was a boy who thought that he would be alone for a long long time. One day, while he was dizzy from heatstroke, and so he stopped to rest at a diner. He met a girl there, but didn't remember her name, but only her face. Several months later, a 'princess' is having a birthday party, and the boy was invited. It was a coincident, that he saw the girl again, this time he sees her differently. Perhaps, it was love at second sight. He debated whether to take a risk with his inner self, and so decided to make a move first. After some time of courting, he managed to somehow win the heart of the girl. The girl is now still his girlfriend, but after a lot of hardships, the relationship is hanging over a cliff, as painful as it gets, the boy is trying to hold on no matter what. He can't let go, he doesn't want to let go...at least not yet. The girl is giving her best shot as well, maybe...The boy still loves the girl, no matter what she has done to hurt him so badly, so deeply, the wounds keep opening again and again. But this pain, it is a sign that he is alive...it is a test, and it is much better, much much better than being left alone in the dark. He smiles inside, knowing that he still has a chance, and will continue to be by her side...he cherishes all the memories he has with her...and hopes that she realizes that he has made a lot of sacrifices involving money, time, life, blood, sweat, tears...and that no ordinary person, or no other person would do that much for her...and he will go on and on, even when nobody else will.

Well, this is more or less my story, with all the details left out. Sorry if it sounds odd, or one-sided-ish. 6 more months, and that gives us 2 years in the process...Good enough for marriage no? Lol =P We are planning to have say..at least 2 - 3 kids. Will not reveal the other details, but then again...Nahhhh~ Hahaha, good night then. I hope Min is sleeping now and that she is dreaming of me...hahaha. Sweet dreams, sleep tight, love you and miss you lots..you know that? Haha, well thats all for now. Towards our future then~!!

Untitled

2006-12-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

Don't you wish you could actually turn back time? Change the course of something so it would not happen? But I guess even if you did that, you are merely delaying the inevitable...the thing you dread, it might happen eventually. All that you can do for now is hold on, and do what you do best, or something like that.

Its amazing how some people actually do the opposite to the things they say they intend to do. 'I intend to work and save money' but the next thing you know, that person is throwing money around like it falls from heaven and there are no such thing as poor people. Or rather 'I want to sleep early, I'm tired' and the next thing you see, is that person talking on the phone for more than an hour, or watching TV shows, or playing games, rather than resting up.

Its also amazing how some people brush you off like you aren't important, or were never important. How they forget what they use to do, or what you use to do for them. All precious things discarded like nothing. It saddens me...it does. Sure, people change, their hearts, body, mind..they all change. But ask yourself, are you changing for the better? Do you think you're doing good now? There are many factors to consider, such as who are your peers now...who were your peers before? What did you use to do? What did you do, and what do you do now? Many many difficult questions...but very little answers. I am very lost...

I'd ask myself...what happened to that girl who used to hug my hand, hold it tight, and warm me with her loving hugs and would never let go of me no matter what. Now in her place, is someone who's got her priorities wrong...someone who has no self-control, making sad excuses to cover her mistakes for all the wrong reasons. Someone I don't know who doesn't do what she does anymore. Maybe she's happy, so to hell with me, right? Hahaha..I am very confused. What can I do? I cannot change her. I love her, and by right, should accept every bit of her, no matter how much it hurts...It is possible that I am jealous, with the people she socializes with now, however...well, nevermind. I am forced to put on a mask that says 'no matter what fuck happens to me, I have to keep this mask on, this mask that smiles, and hide my sadness behind it'...as time goes by, I realize I have lost the rights to be jealous, to be sad in front of her, to be angry...well, frankly because..she doesn't like it? Or perhaps, she won't accept my feelings. She is rejecting them for her happiness. Foolhardy, I cannot let her go...unless she wants to go on her own. Is she staying with me out of love...or out of guilt? But no matter what is thrown at me, I will face it, and move along...because I want to prove to her, that I have stood my stand, and in the end, I am the one who loves her most..the one who stands by her no matter what, to the end..no matter how hurt, or what circumstances. Sometimes it goes that I am left feeling unappreciated, but as expressed by one of my friends...I guess its alright. Working in the shadows...Although, a nice sincere thank you would do very very nicely. But definately, I will show her...that I am capable, worthy, no matter how painful, to walk this journey called 'love'. If she cannot walk with me, then I will carry her on my back...Haha, sorry about the whole entry. I just feel like letting lose this pain I am holding in. I'm sick of it frankly, but you see...I'm trying my best to hold on...

I will be leaving next year...and depends on how she grows...good or bad, with her friends, also good or bad she will grow...and I cannot stop that, no matter what. I just hope she walks the right path..I have shown her certain things, advised on certain things..but it is up to her to do the right things. If she does it wrongly..I hope she learns her lessons, the hard way..I will not be around for a period of time to pull her up when she's down..like I did before..which I doubt she remembers. Hahaha...I guess I will conclude my entry now. I did not get to shout out loud the last time I went to the beach. If she even reads this entry...she might get offended, but I am merely typing out my thoughts, without forcing her to do anything...well, whatever goes then. Good Night...I love you...Min. We will be coming 1 year and a half on this coming 18th...Hahaha, I hope you remember.

Blast

2006-12-05T19:10:00.000+08:00

I had a good time with my friends yesterday, probably the last time I'll see most of them...This saddens me, but hell, life goes on, right?

I also had a blast with Min yesterday. I suppose, things are more or less patched up, or correct me if I'm wrong, it should be fine now. We're still together, and going on, which is what should matter most, I suppose. I have no second thoughts, no second choices. Well well, I slowdanced with Min, though basically three songs only, she was queasy, and er, shy, lol.

So hmm, I was in school yesterday morning doing the class magazine thing. Around 10.30 I met with Min, and we took the bus back to Seri. I packed my bag, Min chit-chat with my mom, and insult me at the same time. We watched Prince of Tennis Live Action, and Detective Conan Live Action. Had some trouble with the booking of rooms, but after a while, I solved it or something like that.

Went to Riverview around 3. Spent about 1 hour admiring the room, checking out the towels, TV, Radio, and lights. XD Min took her shower first, then I did, oooh, there was a TUB. And OMFG I haven't had a bath in one of those in ages! After that, got dressed, and then wait for others to arrive. Around 6.45 we went down, saw my fellow DragonZ, and followed them to the tempat keramaian.

Once everyone arrived, we dig in and all that. Makan like pig. XD Once eating, some music were played, and well, got dance a bit, but I nearly threw up, so I decided to sit around a little while longer. After that, slow song dimainkan..and I danced to that, at first with my brothas..and then when Manzy (THANK YOU THANK YOU!) finally convinced Min to dance, we dance, to about 3 songs when Min got queasy and tired, we sat down. Then when techno was played, disco start lah...I dunno how many different guys I danced with. XD Well, Min danced a bit bit lar, but she got queasy..again? @@" Haha, dance, take photo, accompany Min, and again and again. Repeated cycle. Haha, around 11, I left with Min, because she needs to go to work the next day.

According to Sufi and other people whom I met today...magazine thing again, some commotion came up =\ And that pretty much ruined the night huh? Ah...thats too bad. But other than that, it was a job well done, all thanks to the committee members, Manzy, Aby, Michelle and all. Salutations, and my sincerest thanks, and apologies.

Well, It's one night that cannot be rewinded. So yeah. I think I got a little drunk >_>" I drank..um, 3 Tigers? Lol, tak tahan one lar. One from Teck, one from Seng, and uh..Ronald left his on my table, so yeah. @@" Huhuhu..But no worries, I assure you nothing happened at all. Haha, Min is working..and she's going out with friends for dinner tonight, so yeah...Take care dear, and don't come home so late. Ahaha, tomorrow got work again. Be good yeah. *public mwakz and hugz* XD Well, love you.

Hopefully, tomorrow going out to Gadong for Dota..my fingers gatal for Dota. XD

One Year, Five Months

2006-11-18T10:41:00.000+08:00

Anniversary today, though I feel very very lonely. Ahaha..shikatanai, right? Can't be helped, lol. Well, I hope Min is happy at work..and all that. I want you to know I still love you, and I'm still waiting for an answer..I hope you realize that. I miss you every day, every night..and I don't know if it's the same for you. So all I can do now is hope, and wait...for heaven's judgement. Good day all, and Happy 'Versary Min, hope you remembered it too..

Boku. Me. I. Saya. Ako. Aku. Watashi. Wo.

2006-11-08T23:01:00.000+08:00

Yep. I never really introduced myself to the world, but here goes.

Hi, my name is Kevin Leo Tan Tai Tee. Kevin is my given name, and Leo is my saint name. If you want to know where that name came from its actually taken from Saint Leo the Great. For more information, you could look him up in Google or Wiki. =) My Saint's trait is courage and faith. Cool story behind it all, but this is about me, so go read yourself, ahahaha. My other names are Shin, my given Japanese name, and no, you don't have to know where I got it. Manzy calls me Kebin-boi, Irene calls me Shin-boi, Jessica calls me Kevie-kun, MinMin calls me VinVin, or Bak Gong (Pork Husband), and everyone else just calls me Kev, Vin, Tan, 7th, or Thien Thien Chicken Rice. Okay, that's enough about my name.

Let's see, I like to draw. Yes I do, in fact I started to drawing because I was inspired by my cousin Kakashin, because he was an excellent artist. And so, I started drawing when I was about 5 or 6. Started off with Sonic, DBZ and stuff like that, and moved on, so on and so forth. I have sites that host my artworks, mainly wallpapers now, because I do wallpaper designing, albeit not so good, but decent enough. http://rengekishin.minitokyo.net is one of them. I recently acquired a Wacom Tablet, bought by my mother-in-law to be, but with my money of course. Good stuff. Basically I love all kinds of arts, and what I intend to do with my future, most likely go into graphic designing if possible. I do make tickets, posters, birthday cards, business cards, logos and all those from time to time, and I DO expect to be paid, especially if its decent to excellent work. Sometimes I don't charge, well, sometimes. Haha, anyways, I'm also a writer, poet, drummer and baker. For sample of my work, for the time being, you can find it at http://12-dz.0moola.com I wrote a story based on my friends there, the 12 DragonZ people mainly, but I will be adding more people into the cast. Oh, I'm also into Martial Arts, especially what some people call freestyle or fusion of Martial Arts. Sports, lessee..I do badminton, use to do Tang Soo Do, fencing and kendo. Stopped for some odd reason. Piano, yes, I do play, but now I do drumming. Although I am still learning. XD

I am someone who sometimes get engrossed in deep thinking, possibly a quality and a bad habit. I have a girlfriend, Ser Chang Min, aka RainMin the sitemistress. We have been together for 1 year and 4 months. Well, 5 months in 10 days, provided if she still wants me, and if she remembers our anniversary, lol. Ah, okay, I really love her, and for her, I'd do anything. I miss her a lot right now. She turned my life around, and now I am waiting for her to come to a conclusion regarding something. I have a godsister, Manzy, who also changed my life for the better and my main circle of friends revolves around the 12 DraGoNZ, and then it branches off. I don't know whether Burt is a friend, a mentor, or and idol, but I suppose he falls into all the above categories. A highly inspiring person, you'd love to meet I assure you. I am also sometimes involved in church events. I do serve the lord, just sometimes in my own way. I am not VERY religious, but I have faith. I do believe. Okay, uhhhhh...I'm running out of things...AH!

I love anime! Manga! Comics! Hentai..uhhh, scratch that. Anyways, I watch a variety of animes, including Naruto, Bleach, ES21, Yakitate Japan, One Piece, Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles, Onymou Taisenki, Shounen Onmyouji, Mahou Sensei Negima, Death Note, Air Gear, Busou Renkin, FMA, FMP, Eureka7, Rockman, Digimon, Pokemon, DBZ, Detective Conan, Yu Yu Hakusho, DN Angel, Chrno Crusade, Tokyo Underground and many many more. I know, its a long list right? Well, you haven't really seen it ALL yet. I'm just too lazy to recall everything.

I would possibly be a hardcore gamer, if I had owned any console at all or maybe a better PC/Laptop. But all I have is this piece of junk, and I have to be happy with it. I'm hoping for a better one soon though *hint hint* XD Christmas anyone? Nah, hahaha I'm joking. Anyways, I love RPG games, Strategy RPG games, you name it. I usually follow a series of games, tracing back to prequels, integrating into spin-offs, and sequels, and also tracing back to the Company. Atlus, SquareEnix anyone?

I am also a proud owner of a Canon Ixus Digital Camera. I love taking photos. Sometimes very random, but I'm not very good yet. Also learning to edit images, tsk tsk, shouldn't I do something better? Hahaha, but indeed, if it goes well, it just further increase my chances for choice of career if I have more skills, I suppose?

And as you can see, I am blogging. (Duh) I also go around reading blogs, but usually just the people who blog around me. Other than that, I seldom roam around. If you do drop by here though, enjoy your stay.

Music! MUSIC! XD Well, It would've come to this eventually. I'm a horrid singer (I suppose) but I like drumming, and all that. I listen to all sorts of music, as long as I can still hear after that. My Min is an excellent singer! She aspires to be a singer, but I don't know if thats still what she wants. I listen to Westlife, Craig Wedren, Hillsongs, Casting Crowns, Secondhand Serenade, Dashboard Confessionals, J-Pop (too long to list these guys), Nickelback and stuff that I like basically. Am not too choosy, as long as I like it.

Well, I was born in Tawau, March 23rd, 1990. (Odd that this comes later than all the above stuff!) I then moved to Brunei before I reached age 1. I went to school in Chung Hwa when I was younger, but they promoted me a year up to KG2...well, because I already knew stuff that other kids didn't. (Not genius, just a lot of whacking from my mom! Hahaha!) Then I studied there until Primary3, where then I left Brunei for KK. A whole new world. There I studied in St.Simon's Complex of Education. Basically SRS. Sekolah Rendah St.Simon's. Up to Primary 6, where I achieved a result of 2As, 3Bs. After that, I went up to Form1 in Maktab Nasional, still in St.Simon's Complex. I was planning of spending my whole life there, with friends, my studio, etc. But too bad, I was 'sacrificed' and sent back to Brunei to live with my dad. Form2, SGS, St.George's school. Form2 wasn't a pleasant year for me, and I was struck with a kind of trauma then. (Some incident) and then in Form3, I was somehow 'revitalized' and stuff. I survived through Form3, and had a long-distance relationship with a Goth girl way older than me, living in America for about 1 year. After that, Form4, say things didn't go well, we split. And that was a beginning of a lot of things. One, I was in Science Stream, and people think I changed...or the sort. Well, I met Min! 18th June, 2005 she became mine! After all the trials before me were knocked down, and all that stuff, here I am. Sitting for O levels, waiting for Min, maybe start anew. I'm hoping to do well, go to KL, finish up, and return for Min, and go wherever she goes then. It all depends. I suppose the future is not certain.

And that's all the time I've got! Its random, messy and stuff..I know. Well, my parting words are, I want Min, you, to know that I will come back for you no matter what. I really miss you right now, and I really love you. Well, I'll be there whenever you need me, for support and whatnot. Maybe it doesn't sound to sincere here, but I really mean it. To everyone else, toodles. Last blog entry for a long long time. I have been through an ordeal recently, and I'd rather not go into detail, but yeah, most of my readers know. Good luck for your futures! Good Night! *public smooch and hug my dear* Love you all of you guys too!

Happy Birthday MinMin

2006-11-01T16:04:00.000+08:00

I think I may be a couple of minutes late, but yeah, Happy Birthday to my dear Min. May your wishes come true, and blessings fall upon you, and may knowledge shower over you. Lol. *pops confetti* Anyways..well, I don't have much to say, except Happy Birthday, enjoy your day out with your friends. And eventhough I will not be there, and all that stuff..I'll try to be optimistic/positive about it. Maybe I'll miss one, two or three birthdays with you. But yeah..I'll look forward to the others. Happy Birthday. I love you. I really do. And oh, I miss you too..haha. See you when I see you then dear..Good Night Folks. Sweet Dreams, and Sleep Tight.

Happy Belated Anniversary

2006-10-19T18:21:00.000+08:00

Happy Belated 1 Year and 4 Months Anniversary to my beloved dear, Min~

Anyways, our anniversary was yesterday, but we didn't celebrate at all, lol. Busy busy, yesterday I had my Art Paper 2, and the day before Art Paper 1. I did much better in Art Paper 1 than I would normally expect, but Art Paper 2...was, bleh. Not so much as bleh, but its fine, according to teacher, but she said I did much better the day before. Enough of that I guess, thats long gone now.

Today, went to school around 8 and did some Portfolio work. I helped Larrie do his, and did some people's cover pages. T'was fine, and fun as well, seeing some of our friends again. Anyways, after all that, teacher offered me a job. Yes, you read right. =) A job. She said, if I am interested, I could be one of the teachers in an art school ,Just Art, which will be opening in Serusop if not mistaken. And if the logo that I designed for them is accepted my majority, I will be paid for it. Lol. Good deal.

Okay, putting that aside, we've got a website for the 12-Ekor-CicakZ...oops, I mean 12-DragonZ, haha. Its http://12-dz.0moola.com Do come visit us. There's a story featuring the people we know in real life, so yeah, you might find it interesting. Anyways, thats all, I haven't blogged in a long time, and probably won't be blogging in the future, at least not until I find some time. Toodles.

FOOTPRINTS in the SAND

2006-09-25T21:17:00.000+08:00

Yesh, FOOTPRINTS in the SAND.

Are you wondering why is it the topic of this entry? Cos' I wanna show you all of you, the story of god. =) And since I haven't been blogging here for quite a long time. So yeah, Enjoy! ^-^

One night a ma had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes fro his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
Healso noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."
The Lord replied,"My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints in the sand it was then that I caried you."

And yes, God is always with us. He don't mind anything, he'd just walk through every single thing with us nomatter what we're suffering from. He'd suffer with us. And instead, sometimes he's the one suffering, like what the Lord said in the story " During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints in the sand it was then that I caried you." It's really touch, to me really. =)

Well, the story's done. Isn't it touch? Hope you guys would enjoy it! ;)

Misshhh Vin! X3 *HUGGGzzzz*

Happy Belated 15 months~

2006-09-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

Yeah, its been 15 months since me and Min have gotten together. It seems like a long way, but theres a longer and more difficult path ahead of us. It is reasonable to say we are in a stable relationship right now, with my parents approving of us. Things are tough, things will get tougher, but I'll be holding on.

Its the 21st of September as of today, and Miyano (Yi Chuin, my cousin's birthday) was yesterday, so Happy Belated Birthday!

Hmm, well, I'm not going to say everything is going fine in my life, as everything is in ruins right now. I'm still going on, trying to do my best with everything, despite certain challenges that I'm facing.

Living has become difficult, really, and it seems it has become hard trying to be human, even being yourself. Things can change very quickly, very drastically, and very painfully. You may find it strange that you start your day fresh, happy, and in between you find it fun, and at the end of the day you're suffering because you just got into a fight with your parents. Things have become really tiring for me, I just don't know how long I can hold on to everything before I break down, and the burden I'm carrying collapses with me beneath it. It seems so easy for my parents to tell me to study, when I just came home from hours and hours of tuition. Hmm, my internet life isn't going so well either. The subbing team is facing difficulties, there was a forum war going on a while ago, and we moved to a new domain, all seems well, but its difficult to rise from the ashes. There were trolls* around in another forum as well, starting fights, but I won't go into detail.

Haha, rant rant rant, thats all I do yeah? Well, I don't know how else I'm supposed to release all this. Theres really nobody to talk to, either because I can't find the time, or I tend to forget I have these problems when I'm around friends. Its when I come home, or when I'm alone I remember that I have all these responsibilities to hang on to. It all seemed easy back then, studying wasn't really important, at least not to me, it was more to...trying to exist, trying to capture attention, trying to make an impression in everyone. Then when all the fun and games are gone, I snap out of it...then theres a realization...but its a little too late now, I suppose. But I'm still striving and pushing. I am determined not to fail my 'O's, and I am determined to chase my dream and have a bright future ahead of me.

Well, who knows, things might turn out right for me, or in a moment everything will come down crashing. Life is just so miserable right now, so dark, so gloomy, its difficult to look on the bright side anymore. I'm not saying EVERYTHING is bad, I'm just stating its difficult. Flaming me will do you no good, so don't waste your breath.

Anyways, good night. I'm off to bed again. Not going to go to school tomorrow, but I'll be having 6 hours of tuition. Whee~Lucky me. I guess I should be quiet now. =X

*Troll - A fake, or an idiot trying to cause trouble online, especially in forums.

Merdeka? O_o"

2006-09-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

Lol! Yeah, Merdeka~ When I came in to MW, then the first thing I saw was Merdeka~ LoL! XD Alright~ Since Vin keep saying that nobody blogs in MW, then I'll blog here then. ._." bleh! XP Okay then since I blogged here~ then this will be the end of this entry. Ciao Ciao everyone~ XD

LOL Just kidding! XD I've been like, typing a lot today, messages, replies, and so so on on~ Just drew something out with the drawing tablet, it wasn't bad though, like it!! =D This is the first time I draw with tablet, and hmmmm, with color I mean~ and my colour toning isn't that good, so please forgive me if it's not really nice~ XP

Hmmm, yeah, this is the thing that I drew this afternoon, at Vin's house. I feel like buying a tablet also~ Hahahah!!! XPP And Oh! I just created my dream Gaia character today, they're quite cool to me thought, Wanna have some look of them? XD They're Here!! XD They're pretty, aren't they? XD Well, it's not because of me, it just because of that the stuffs in Gaia are too nice to use~ XD

Well, I guess I have nothing much to type here~ bleh~ http://www.gaiaonline.com/profile/index.php?view=profile.ShowProfile&item=4338629 this is my profile in Gaia, I've just down it too~ Enjoy buddies~ x3

And owh! not forgot this. *mwakz and hugz* to my darling Vin x3

Merdeka

2006-08-30T20:50:00.000+08:00

*pops confetti* Yeah, tomorrow is Malaysia's independance day, so yay~

Okay, celebration is over.

Anyways, here's my after mocks blog. Been busy, still busy, going to be busy. My schedule is screwed up, even for the holidays. I dun think its considered a holiday if I have extra class in the omrning, extra tuition in the afternoon and regular tuition at night and work when I get home. Lol, not that I'm complaining cuz I know its for my own good and all that, just feeling a little too tired from all that.

Luck's been crappy as well. I got my Puma Air slippers stolen, and its definately not cheap. I failed my Malay paper I, so far the ONLY freaking fail I have. I can't be bothered to post the story here, cuz almost everyone knows the case. All I know is I despise that teacher. Bloody sore loser.

Tomorrow, Thursday, last day of school, holiday starts tomorrow, officially. But not really for me. I have a feeling some people assume that I'm some kind of superhuman that won't get tired with this schedule, and that its alright to pile more work on me. Let me break it down for you:

A) I attend school, thats 4 hours a day, 6 if you include extra class
B) I work part-time, in my own time, and usually takes up 2 - 3 hours of any free time that I have
C) I go for tuition, EVERY day of the week, more than 2 hours a day sometimes.
D) I have homework, revision, and I DO study at home
E) I have translation work, hacking work, which I'm trying to do less..
F) I have projects, which I try to work on in any free time, but I've been putting them on-hold
G) I need to sleep, eat, bath like any other regular person

Theres a common misconception to other people that I go online and chat all day, or go out all the time or play online games or something. Ah, well, I can't wait to get the hell out of school, with style of course. And flying colours.

Right now, I'm working on some certificates that the Parish requested me to make. I heard someone recommended me. I'm expected to work for free, thats fine with me, but...they could've let me know earlier, and now, they want me to have a sample by tomorrow, and then finish it by Friday. Ah, haha, anyways, I got to get back to work. Lots of load to handle, see everyone else around.

And to Min, take care of yourself, be good, study hard, and study smart, we've got lots fo work on, haha..and lots of things to take care of. Here's a public invisible smooch and hug: *mwakz and hugz* Lol, hope that wasn't too embarassing. Night folks.

Yoshi~

2006-08-12T21:20:00.000+08:00

Halooo everyone~~ it's been awhile that I blog here. Lol, althought it's not too long, but it's somehow kinda long tho. Hmmmmmm, what am I talking about? XD. Anyways, Know what? I found this cute pic here! Sooooooooooo KAWAIIIIIIIIIII !!!! XDDDDThey're so cute! aren't they? XD Wooooo!!

Dragon Tiger Gate

2006-08-03T20:48:00.000+08:00

Great movie. Go watch. Thats all.

Hahaha, Just kidding. Well, I went to Cineplex to watch Dragon Tiger Gate with Min yesterday, which is a Wednesday, and then went for tuition and then went home to study. Well, thats more or less what I did yesterday. Move was awesome, the fightscenes were 70% realistic, especially Donnie Yen's. I like Nicholas's scenes as well, because I follow his movies a lot, such as 'My Classmate is a Barbarian' , '2002' and some others. He's good in playing his parts, and DTG is a great movie, well, why do I say that? Because they actually CG-ed the whole damn city from the manga, and that takes a lot and I mean a lot of work, because EVERYTHING was in detail. (Yes, I use to read the manga) Artist was Tony Wong, some HK artist, and his works are great, like really good. And did you know he was in jail before? Lol, and when he got out, he got his new resolve, that is to be an artist! Well, salutes, and good night. Gonna go shower now! Have a nice day! And I love my Dearest Green Apple lots! New month now, work hard!

Very Advanced Happy Birthday to Larrie!

2006-07-30T18:55:00.000+08:00

Waaaa, haha. I'm back to blog here again. I think this site needs a layout change. Lol, anyways, I just got back from First Emporium's Hotel. But before I begin this tale, I'd like to wish Larrie an advanced birthday, and may his wishes come true. Haha, anyways we started planning his birthday like a few weeks before this. Gathered the resources, planned everything carefully, although there were a few interferences, it all ended up pretty well. Everyone was involved in the plan, and we tried our best to conceal from him the surprise party we were going to throw for him. Because, well, he hasn't really got a 'real' happy birthday in years, and from what I heard, he spent his birthday last year sleeping at home, cuz nobody called him out and such. So our dear notorious friend Randy, or Ah Dy, planned this, gathering us together, and assigning different tasks to each of us. Well, most of us succeded, but some of them were really bad actors, and didn't cover up their trails well enough, so Larrie got a bit of the idea of what we're doing. He didn't see through me though =P Ah, lets see, yesterday, Min came to my house, and then we went to 1stEmporium (Will be referring to it as F.E from now on) to meet up with Ah Dy and AJ. We did some shopping and brought the food and all up to the room, Room421. And then, hung around waiting for Ang to arrive, and we cooked Indomee for ourselves, while watching Police Academy. Then, I went home, took a shower, hung around and talked with Min before bringing some of the stuff Ah Dy needed back to FI. I actually went back and forth more than once, lol, because I forgot some stuff. Then my dad sent Min home, I went back to meet Ah Dy, gave him the last of the things, and they came over to my place to wait for my dad. Dad came, went to see the Tattoo. Speaking of which, I left my ticket and Neon-Breakable-Light thingie there, or maybe Louie took my light. Haha, anyways, we watched the show, planning some other stuff, making sure Larrie doesn't find out. Rave, Seng and Ah Peng didn't go to the Tattoo, cuz they had to cook and all at FI. Show finished around 11, but Ang took Ah Dy, Teck and AJ 'home' lol. I had to stall some time so they could arrive first and arrange the other stuff. I had to take Jerome home, which was more than enough time to stall, because we had a hard time finding Jerome, lol. He was lost for nearly an hour. But that was okay I guess, sent Jerome home, then my dad (who, ironically, was also involved in the plan) started to lie to Larrie. XD He said, 'Oh, have to send these jeans to your cousin at FI Hotel' And then Larrie was okay with that, still unable to see that it was a lie =P Stopped at FI's backdoor, and my dad told me to go up and get some boxes down from my 'GrandAunt' then I asked for Larrie to come with me, help me get some of the boxes down. We went up, up, then I rang the door. They pulled the door open and surprised Larrie =) And then...we all attacked him. XD After the attacking, he blew his candles, which were already there, opened his presents, read the card. And then, he cried. He hugged everyone of us who was there. =) And then, we partied. XD There was a lot of things that we did. Eat, watch movie, play games (XBOX and PS2 were both there) and so on. One by one, we fell, lol, fell asleep that is. I fell asleep around, um, 4 - 5, around that time. Woke up before 12, because Seng's phone was ringing, and then everyone followed suit. We paid $30 to stay until 6, otherwise we had to check out. And then to make the morning special, we played Xbox. XD Haha, anyways, cooked our Brunch (Breakfast+Lunch) and ate. My dad came over, and asked me to go tuition. >_> Anyways, I went home to shower, called Min, and went, after tuition went back to FI to help them clean up and all. But the moment I stepped in, took some stuff, everyone started to attack me. Grabbing me by the arms, legs, but I managed to break free, and give everyone a good hit. Ah Peng videod me if not mistaken. While I was gone, they did a lot of attacking, and Ah Peng was the cameraman I think, I might get the videos from them later on. Haha, after the struggle, we did some more stupid stuff, videoing them, and played some Xbox, laughing because we were high from Pepsi and Green Tea. >_>" Everything seemed funny, lol. Well, we cleaned up, and took a group photo, where AJ smashed a cake into Larrie's face. Twice. XD Did some stupid poses, and took some photos. Then we all had to leave. =( Aww, anyways, wished Larrie once more, then I came back home, while Teck took Ang and AJ home, and Seng waited for his car, methinks. Randy, Larrie and Ah Peng took a bus home, if not mistaken.

Well, hope that was interesting. Lol, we hope we can live like that in the future, where everyone is together, fun and all, of course with the other people who were supposed to be there. =) Anyways take care. And especially to Min dear, take care, and be patient, and be safe, andd annd, well, I love you heaps. Haha, we'll still see each other I guess, eventhough you have to go to your uncle's house everynight. T_T Now I want your mom and dad back so you can stay at home. Haha, alright, this is the concludes the entry, good night, and have a nice day. Got school tomorrow...Gah, tired. Zzzz....

ladeda~~ XP

2006-07-23T20:02:00.000+08:00

Miss the Mr. Vin! XD
Just came back from out side, went to sengurong with mom and cousin, just for have a try of the new ice cream shop there. XD Not bad tho, but the food there is kinda weird, like chu chong fun, they don't have meat inside. @@"

Owh yeah, went to Vin's house yesterday. It was like no current at all by the time I reach there. And then after awhile, when I was about to have my lunch (Vin's sister went down to taopao for me. XD), then the light in the kitchen suddenly on,THERE is the Current~ Lol! XD I was there saying "Woww~ God bless me man! XD" And Vin chased me all around. XD And owh~ Thanks Auntie for giving me the red new shirt, I really like it. ^0^

I just painted my nails white colour, nothing to do anyways. XD hehehe~ so here is my blog in MW XD gna blog in my own's I guess. XP Take care everyone~ ^-^

Happy Anni~ ^-^

2006-07-13T18:57:00.000+08:00

Happy Anniversary~~~ ^-^

Sorry for the delay of the blog entry, I've been busying for the pass few weeks. Due to the reason that I have dance practices and all that. Until like I got some wounds on my feet ^^". Too bad huh? hahah XP But it was kinda okay though, we got to get to the second possition, that's really happy enought to know that eventhough we didn't get to possition one, but it's okay =) cuz we know that we're not as good as them, they have talent on dancing, and we just work hard enough. ^^.

And now, Thanks to God, really, we made our relationship this far.We fight, quarrel all that for sometimes. Thank God for blessing us on our relationship =) I hope we could make it till the next century, and the next, and the next, until endless =b. I will appreciate everying that he give to me, and thanks, to all my fiends, for supporting us, and care for us... thanks... =3

Yeaps, we got together on the day of 18th June in the year of 2005. I still remember abit of the memories on that day, like, we went to coffe zone, sit down there and have some chit chat, and then i played his hair cuz his hair was abit messy behind. Then he got abit blushed (CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! X333333333), mwehehehe~ then we went to the mall again, walked up and down for awhile, then we talked abit before he goes home =3. It's still like, So cuteeee~ whenever it pops up in my brain~ XD.

Anyways, I suppose it should be the time for bed, so yeah~ this would be the last part of this entry, tho it'd be kinda short as usual, but I hope this entry is okay. o(.```.)o Ciaoz everyone! ^-^ Sleep tight and have some sweet dreams! x3

*heartz my Vin x3*

One Year

2006-06-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

Thank the Lord. =) We made it this far. We'll go even further. Thanks to all our friends who have given us support and advices. We got together on the 18th of June, 2005. We met sometime before (not sure when), and we met again on Pamela's birthday. I fell in love with her eyes, somehow the only eyes glimmering in the dark corner where I was sitting. I tried to get to know her after that, and then proposed after a month or so. (Time flies so quickly~) Then, our adventure begins there, trials after trials come to us, and we manage to hold on to each other somehow. Despite the fights that we had, the tears that come flowing from anger and sadness, I still love you =) I hope you realize that.

Righty-O, on to what we did today, not much, but we enjoyed it very much. I picked Min up from Pasar around 10.30, came to my house, and then we had some light breakfast while chit-chatting. And then we watched some anime, and it was time for lunch. XD I cooked~ Whee~ Spag if you were wondering, ingredients kindly provided by my mom, but cooking done by me. Not bad, I guess? Lol, and then we had a rest, watched some more shows, talked, joked, had conversations with the rest of my family. Then the rest of my family had dinner. We went online and looked around for some things, and then we went to Charcoal for dinner. Thank God there was one table left, the rest were reserved for Father's Day! Well, we had the special set menu, $38.90 or something like that, and an extra drink. After eating, we went to look for presents for the coming birthdays (Burt and Jess), of course, we bought the presents already. *evil grin* Hehe, and then we came home, wrapped them and waited for Min's transport home to come around 9. It came, and then she left. T_T Oh well, but we had a good time, lots of talks about the past, memories came flowing back. Haha, I suppose you get what I'm trying to say.

Anyways, it has been an enjoyable day, everything went well, and smoothly. Err, except before dinner my dad told me to send my friends emails concerning Goji. >_>" Well, I did what he wanted and he rewarded me with $50. XD Anyways, Good Night folks! Min, your turn to blog!

Things I want to do. Lol. Please Don't Laugh.

2006-06-07T22:14:00.001+08:00

Seriously, don't laugh. Here's a 'Things I wanna do after Form5/O Levels' List. >_> No, seriously.

1. Spend more time with Min, at least before I leave.
2. Get myself a freaking laptop.
3. Arrange the 6-to-6 party, something me and Sufi discussed. Lol. (Don't ask yet)
4. Win a lottery ticket? Oh wait, I'm underage, lol. Maybe I should just concentrate on the School magazine.
5. Learn to drive properly.
6. Master at least one musical instrument, in this case drums. Anyone know how to play the Harmonica?
7. Get better in designing. Err, somehow.
8. Apologize to all my friends for being an ass all this time. Haha.
9. Belanja all my friends makan, at least once before I leave.
10. Errr, apply for a university. LOL!
11. Enjoy the holidays.
12. Earn some income for myself. Again, somehow.
13. Lol, expect my results (5As? 6As? Haha) , wait to be accepted into a university (KK, KL, S'pore). Take up Graphics Designing, Ya-Ha!
14. Grow taller, change my appearance a bit. Get one of my ear's pierced, lol, maybe get contacts, or better glasses.
15. Do something about ThienThien. No, I'm serious, I should suggest something to my cousin.

Lol, 15 things, I think thats all I can decide for myself up for now. I can't guess what'll happen in the future, I hope these can be achieved. To all those out there, I hope you know what to do with your future! Remember time cannot be returned once its lost!

The Wonderful life? =b

2006-05-31T18:23:00.000+08:00

yeah, Wonderful Life, this is the title of this blog layout XP I like this too drama too~ Well, korean drama is always so nice =b But yeah, I know for some people still don't really like it, I won't blame you for not liking it, and I won't chase you with a knife behind you, so don't worry =b.

It's been like centuries that I havent been blogging here as well huh? Sorry for that too... hmmm I guess there're something to apologize of for the month ^^" Sometimes I think I'm kinda out of control doing something that people don't really like, just hope that you could forgive me... aight...

I know I should say sorry, to Vin... for being cold for such a long time, for being not being there for a long time. I deeply apologize for that... hope that you could forgive me..

Manzy, sorry for being impolite when we're in your house celebrating your advice birthday, I was kinda out of control..

Burt, sorry, don't know why, but sorry..

There are lots of SORRYs, sorry and sorry... I have nothing to say but sorry to everyone, for not being a good friend to my friends.. The fact that is because I don't really know how to show my caring to others, I really don't. Is not that I don't wanna care, but just I don't know how to show my self to my friends that I care for them. Sorry for that...

Let's not bother you guys from these things, hm? Well, I've been treating myself kinda cold for awhile, cuz' I thought that I was useless, always can't help others, am I? Sometimes I think that, am I really that speechless? I can't even talk properly with my friends sometimes, and sometimes people get bored easily talk to me I think?

Yes, I've been thinking, but it's okay to me now. I'm here for making a new stuff to myself, not treating myself cold, not treating others cold as well. I want every of my friends to be happy even there's only a very limited thing for me to help. It's not a bad thing, is it? At least everyone is happy then it'd be good to me. I just hope that, we could help every each person, not wanting anything for return, even there is, must be appreciate too =)

I begin to know this world, slowly and slowly, not much but still less. We're growing up, there're still lots of pains that I have to go through. If I can just give up for small things like this, then how could I make my steps to the future? Anger, jealousy, are what evil get his power from, so I want to make evil lose it's power, even it's only a little bit.

Me and Vin's one year anni is coming, I hope I can prepare something good for him. ^_^ and I think it's time to stop blogging now, I'm hunry XP Take care every one! Don't forget to eat yeah! =D Do well in exams, works, Do NOT be too tired! ALL THE BEST TO YOU ALL!!!! XD

Ooo..exams approaching.

2006-05-23T21:30:00.000+08:00

Looks like Min finally found time to change layout, not that anyone really visits here anymore. Lol, I suppose its only Burt? Well, thats so sad. I hear a lot of people are switching over to MySpace, which is sad. MySpace isn't as good as Blogspot, IMHO. (In my honest Opinion) Well, thats just my opinion, the cons being it doesn't have a tagboard, and you can't really edit your layout much, unless you happen to be very efficient at understanding how their layout changer works. But they do have their cons, its simple, and its accesible through MSN, only if there is an update, plus they have comment boards instead of Tagboards. It depends on your likes I guess?

Hmm, other than that, exams are near, Min is having hers now, so best of luck to her. Meanwhile, ours is approaching quite fast, less than 6 days from today if I'm not mistaken. Lol, I don't even know what my first paper is. I'm just studying what I feel like studying whenever I can. Usually its science, doing some maths questions, economics, and geo. Haha, I think thats all I have to study. English and Malay are not really considered study subjects, unless you opt for the Peribahasa, Simpulan Bahasa, Perambahan Brunei questions for Paper 2 Malay. Art, just need some practice, lol, I absolutely suck at painting and shading. I guess this isn't my field, but I have to do my best if I am to go for Graphic Designing.

Next month, things to look forward to. Holidays~Burt and Jessica-nee's birthday, me and Min's one year anniversary~ Yay~~!! Haha, well, that means pooling my allowances again. Sad sad life. I'm still waiting for the prize money (if I do win something) from the Energy Conservation essay that I wrote for Brunei Shell. Even if its less than $100, thats good enough for me. =P

Anyways, this is all for now, I'm off to blog at LRW, if I have time. Really sleepy right now, got some rest, but I guess its not really enough, maybe I'll go back to sleep? Haha, well, see everyone around. I suppose at this point in time, everyone would be busy with their own future ahead, right? Then good luck to everyone.

Hm, been away for a month.

2006-05-12T06:39:00.000+08:00

Its the 12th of May, 2006. 6 more days to our 11th month anniversary. Quickly approaching the 1 year mark. Well, its 6.40am in the morning right now, and I'm getting ready to go to extra class. Why so early? Well, because my dad is only free to take us there at this time, plus my bro and sis both have their own classes to attend.

I trust Min is too busy to be blogging, so I'll blog first, hopefully she will follow after this entry. Min has dance practice today, I think its for a dancing competition, and hopefully she does well. Meanwhile, I'll be out the whole day, after school theres a CS competition in netcom, going there, but not joining the main group of Ang, Seng and someone else I suppose. After that we're going to hang around the mall until some of us have to attend a meeting with AJ's superior, something about Network Marketing. I think this is the site : http://quest.net Visit it if you want to take a look.

Nothing much, lets see my weekly schedule then, shall we?

Monday : Nothing, rest at home.
Tuesday : Science EC, Drumming.
Wednesday : Maths EC, English/Malay lessons with Min.
Thursday : Drumming.
Friday : EC, outing with +=DraGoNZ, handling our art week projects
Saturday : Short lesson with Min, then tuition with Burt in the evening.
Sunday : Not much, sometimes I go to church.

Well, thats all for now, see you guys around and I hope Min blogs. Haha, take care then.

Coming into April~

2006-03-30T18:26:00.001+08:00

April is in 2 days, and its been a while since I blogged here as well. The people who provide me the internet connection are STILL trying to fix my connection, its been awful not being online at home for at least a month. I guess its a test of patience, and also to see what I would do in my free time. Well, I DID study, and of course I did some other stuff as well.

Hmm, I don't suppose this blog would be long. I'm hoping Min's internet stabilizes soon, so she can blog here, and of course at the other blogs as well. And um, I think I made a slight miscalculation on how long me and Min have been together >_>" I don't know how I made the mistake, but it seems, at least if I'm not mistaken AGAIN, we'll be going into our 10th month? @@"

Anyways, into other stuff, I submitted my 3 wallpapers to Minitokyo. Here are links:

Hitsugaya Toushiro - How cold can you get? : http://gallery.minitokyo.net/view/226800/
Hitsugaya Toushiro & Matsumoto Rangiku : http://gallery.minitokyo.net/view/226801/
Abarai Renji : http://gallery.minitokyo.net/view/226803/

Well, hope they're okay, and I doubt anyone's gonna full-view them, cuz not many people are into MT >_>"

Anyways, I'm off now, can't be long here. Take care everyone, I'll blog at DA the next time if I can.

Coming into April~

2006-03-30T18:26:00.000+08:00

Coming into a new month

2006-02-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

Theres always a few things to look forward to in each new month. For me, thats, new things to learn, more events to look forward to (maybe not in this case), and celebrating another month's anniversary with Min~ XD Well, coming this month, we'll be, um, entering our 8th month, if not mistaken. Thats really good for us, at least we know we're going at a stable rate~right? Well, I haven't blogged here in a while, and it won't be long. Sports day is in two months or so, and I've taken up Tug of War, and well, been going (actually only went) to the gym. Well, at least I went once. Its good workout, but it sucks when you don't have spare clothes to change into once you're all wet and sweaty >_>" Anyways, anyone know where you can get Macromedia Freehand? It was recommended by my cousin, its a really good program for vectoring, extraction and drawing I heard, although Photoshop still beats everything else down in terms of effects and filters (at least if I'm not mistaken), I want to get used to Freehand by the end of this year, if I can. First assestment is coming up, lots of people feeling pressured by it, because we also have other things to do asides from study, and some teachers don't understand us at all. Their subject is NOT the only subject we have to study for, and therefore if we can't answer everything about a certain topic in a certain subject, we are NOT slacking off. We just have other things to remember that our brains can barely handle it. That, plus, some other stuff of course. Not all students spend their whole day playing games, being online, or going out. Some students actually study, its just that we have to study for other subjects, not only one. Well, enough rants here for now. I'm off to do some other stuff, maybe watch anime to release stress? I hope everyone feels better, and hopefully, at the end of the year, we'll celebrate like hell~ Yeah~ *heard a rumour about a 6 to 6 part going to happen* But yeah, work hard first, enjoy later! Wheeee~ I'm off! Take care, and I think this site's layout is going to change soon? Would like to wish Min to manage her time wisely, and hope her tuition goes well. Take care everyone~

New blog entry~

2006-02-12T11:46:00.000+08:00

Hahaha, alright, everyone is waiting for a new blog~ =b. I'll blog, since I haven't been blogging for quite awhile ^^" sorrie everyone. Aight, actually I'm kinda lazy to blog, but feel abit guilty for not blogging =b. I'm doing my chinese composition at the same time, Don't really know what to write about. Nothing much to do now, except blogging and doing chinese. Aight, I'm joining the National day dance. Went to padang dance yesterday, pretty hot = =" and I heard some of the students got fainted. And I can still remember the last practice was on 4th of Febuary, which is a Saturday. My friend almost fainted after the practice. Mr. Ang, who happens to be out school's disiplin master, carried her back to school (Oh Jesus, bless her...). Glad that she's okay this time =).

About chinese new year, I can't really remember what I did on those days. I was suppose to blog after the Chinese New Year, but I didn't managed to, cuz i was too lazy (sorry everyone...) and oh, for sometimes, I feel like blogging, but blogspot don't load me T.T . Aights, I guess I'll blog next time, after awhile. hehehe, sorry for that, I know this entry is short, sorry ^^" anyways, take care everyone =)

Online~Online~

2006-01-21T20:00:00.000+08:00

I'm online! Its a miracle! Haha! Well, I haven't blogged here in a while so yeah, here I am. This site is pretty dead @@" Since nobody else tags here except Manzy and Burt, everyone else is either busy or they can't come online due to other reasons! Hmm, thats too bad T_T

Haha, we (Manzy, Greg and me) went out with Burt just now, I woke up from my afternoon nap around 4.30, and bathed, and then suddenly there was a call! Mom told me to hurry, and Manzy said they were coming in a few minutes (but I heard it as 15 minutes, so I took my own sweet time XD) But in a FEW minutes, Manzy called and told me they were here already - -" So I rushed in styling my hair, and decided to put my socks on in Burt's car XD Well, we went to Yayasan, but Burt went around in circles to wait till its 5, so the entrance fee is only $1 >_>" Hmm, so Burt parked the car, we went to eat at KFC. Um, I had Zinger ( Real Savers Set #3 ) and so did Greg and Manzy, Burt had OR Fillet Burger tho, and Manzy also ordered Cheesy Wedges XD After eating, and a lot of burping from Greg, we went up to the Computer's section to look for DVD-Rs and CD-Rs. Talked a bit, and then we saw some really 'new' CPUs. There was one that looked like a face, more like a Gundam's, and then theres one really cool one, dunno how to describe it tho. @@"

After that, we went down, to the basement to help Burt do his shopping, Manzy, Greg and me (well mainly Greg and Manzy) kept putting stuff Burt doesn't want to buy into his basket XD And then there was one instance, where Manzy picked up raw chicken (a whole one) and gave it to me, asking me to put it into Burt's basket, but, she didn't realize the chicken was bloody! Haha, and I wiped some of the blood onto her arm, and she got me to follow her to the Tauge section to wash her arm >_>" (get some water from the bucket of Tauge, and wash) but it made it smell worse (I used the Taufu one, didn't smell as much) And then we made one round back to the Tauge section and she used the Taufu one also, haha. And then um, she decided to go to the lotion section and use some on her arm, haha. Manzy asked Burt how it smelled, and Burt says it smelled like um, Cipet. Hahaha. Burt, haha, hyper as usual.

Hmm, what else arh. Owh yeah, after shopping, we went home lur T_T At least get to talk and have a fun a bit, too bad Min and Jess weren't there T_T Well, I'm here right now, online on Windows Messenger, I can't deliver messages to most people, so right now only chatting with Manzy, Min is on the phone with Pamela, so yeah, haha. I think thats all for now XD Ciaoz! Thanks for the ppl who tag! Good night!

Red Packets!!!

2006-01-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

Haha, long time no blog here as well. Anyways, I'll be leaving for Melaka on the 27th of January, I think. Will be spending at least 5 days in Melaka, and 5 in KK. Not confirmed, but yeah. Will be visiting my relatives here and there. I'm hoping to buy some stuff and bring them back for you guys if I see anything nice...or if I get spending money there >< I owe some people Christmas presents, so yeah, haha. My dad says he'll only enroll me at Walni after CNY, meaning only after I get back from Malaysia. Extra classes times have not really been confirmed, which sucks. A lot of money has been spent on school supplies @@" And class has been going fine somehow, I hope I can catch up. Tomorrow is a holiday, so I'm hoping Min might be able to drop by my place. But apart from that, nothing much has happened. Really, I haven't been online on MSN (can't sign in) so I suppose I'm pretty much left out on a lot of things. Things at home are fine, though my mom and dad are constantly reminding me how much I'm left behind on things, like Geo, Arts and Maths. I suppose I can cope with the subjects, so long as I don't slack off again in the middle of the year. My net is a bit stable, but still not fast, its on 24 hrs, but constantly fails to receive signals. Haha, oh well. Good news, I got a new mouse. Means I can go back to desgining if I'm bored. Kinda lost my touch there though, ideas don't flow in that easily anymore, haha. Its pretty boring being stuck at home, and not being able to to stay back that often anymore. Well, thats life so far. Nothing really interesting, me and Min are doing fine, no frictions or anything like that. Anyways, I'll blog at DA tomorrow if I can come online. Take care~ Thanks for dropping by every once in a while! We appreciate it! =)

Once in awhile, I'm back ^^"

2006-01-04T13:03:00.000+08:00

First of all here, I gotta say, sorry for the lack of blogging here... For the last few months, and maybe from now on. I was working for the last two months, and didn't blog often also, and... well, umm... school started, some small matter bothering me, that I'm retained, in Form2, waiting for an answer from principal, hoping that she would give me one more chance. *please* T.T Well, yes, I'm kind of afraid that you guys might look me down, but what to do, I feel like telling you guys the truth that I'm retained in form2. 3rd of January, First day of school, early in the morning I done with my school pack (just a little stuffs, first day of school), straightly went to office and look for principal, but too bad there're also some people queueing outside the principal office. So I waited, until she had to go for assembly, and waited, until she came back around 7:50. And some people only cares for themselves, came after me but go in before me (my leg was aching). And after ages of waiting, it's me, and finally my turn. I went in, and begged her, but she said that she had to think, and to discuss with teachers. I told her I'll do my best in form3, she said she still have to think. Well, after that I came out, and I hope that I wouldn't look so dummy, cuz I almost cry when facing her, sigh, I wonder why am I so useless. I standing out side the class, don't feel like going into the class. Hanging around until it's almost the break time. Luckily, there're some student I know in the class, Patrik (scout troop mate) Angie (used to be my tuition friend). And I finally get back to usual after awhile. After break time, I went back to the class, Mr Khei was there, used to be my form teacher last year. He was like 'You're here~?' I shoke my head. 'Are you sure you walk in to the right class?' 'I'm so sure' 'Well, please come in.' And then I back to my seat. Had some fun in the class, at least. This class isn't that bad like what I thought, they're quiet most of the time (I kinda like those quiet place though, heheh~) So... Well, guess what? Time was like ticking so slow, or maybe I was just too panic to get out from that class? Ummm, after dismissed school, I went to SGS. AJ told me that Kevin is back, but Chen Hui said don't believe him, actually I was half believe AJ, but still want to see whether he's around. Yeah, like what AJ said, Kevin went home. Met Manzy, Jessi, Aby, Mechelle and her sister. And then Manzy terus tell me don't know Kevin go before I ask xD (Thanks Zy, anyways xP) And then stay awhile till they all gone, and then ummmm, followed Alexis car back (Thanks Alexis! xD if you're reading this) well, this is a beginning, hope it goes well =)

Last here, Happy New Year to all =D

Well, its kinda sad...

2005-12-31T22:56:00.000+08:00

The year is coming to an end, and I'm sure that most of the people I know would be counting down one way or another. Meanwhile, I'll be stuck here, on new year's eve, alone. Haha, well, I did go out earlier in the afternoon, first to get my passport done at the border, and then I went to the Mall, with Min, watched Wallace and Gromit, although I'd much prefer an earlier show, we caught the 6 o' clock one. Movie finished around 7.30, and I rushed to my uncle's house to wait for my parents to arrive. They arrived, and I just got reminded by my uncle who didn't recognize me, and thought I was my cousin's friend, and my aunt, that I have gained another niece. Ah, how I feel old. Haha, and then, we chit chatted a while, and I went back to the mall, around 8.25 I think. Then got some of the pictures from December 25th developed, and then I met my parents at Pizza Hut. Then I'm right here right now. Not really how I imagine I'd spend my day. All in all, it went okay. Min is sleeping over a friend's house tonight, and I'll see her on Monday. Tomorrow I might be dropping by Manzy's place ( I hope its okay >< ) and then go to mass with her perhaps (again, hope you don't mind @@"). If not, I'll just stay home, sulk, and then go to mass, haha. Oops, - -" nearly fell off the chair. Was twirling around the chair. Haha, really dead bored. Anyways, I'll be looking forward to next year! See everyone around, and I hope we all get through O levels~ Well, I'm off to sleep I suppose, night night everyone~

uses Phoenix Down on this site

2005-12-29T14:15:00.000+08:00

Yay~I'm here. I wonder what the year 2006 holds for me? This year went by quickly, and it was only as if yesterday I was taking my PMB! I've had 2 wonderful years, all thanks to Manzy, Jess, Burt, Min and everyone else. I was really reluctant to come to Brunei and study in St.George, and my Form2 didn't really go well. At least my Form3 and Form4 years went fine. I saw my name in my new classroom, Form5A. How ironic, that I come to school and I go to that classroom (previously Form2A) and I'll be leaving school in that classroom (now the Form5A classroom).

I suppose I'll be enjoying next year, even though its the exam year. I'll try my best to achieve the results I need, and I already have an aim in what course to take and such. I'll be doing Matriculation (which is pre-university, 11 months, if I'm not mistaken) and then take up Multimedia Computing, which should take roughly 2.5 to 3 years. I hope all goes well for me.

I don't really know what else to say, except that, I wish everyone has a good year next year, and may you receive twice as many Red Packets than you did this year XD And last but not least ><>< Sorry again! Ciao! Off to my own blog now! Thanks for tagging Burt and Zy!

Here's another one folks..

2005-12-04T19:58:00.000+08:00

Here's another tutorial, before I run off to blog at my own place. Min won't be around for now, so its only right that I blog to keep this site alive. Haha, this time's theres going to be a tutorial and some advices for wallpaper makers. I'll start with the advices.

Okay, you all have seen wallpapers right? And you know your desktop well enough, right? Well, take note here. 80% of people place their icons on the left side of the desktop. Therefore it is only right to place the 'character' of the wallpaper in the middle, or on the left. Not too left, not too close to the icons either. The icons will cover up the so-called 'beauty' of the character. Or at least, thats what most wallpaper critics say. Next thing to notice is the contrast of the wallpaper, never ever think that its not bright enough or too bright, or okay without looking at it yourself. And try mess around with your monitor's contrast. As you all know, different people keep different contrasts for different purposes. White, and yellow, are not really good colors for a wallpaper, unless you know how to utilize them. Might blind some people just by looking at the screen. >_>" Ah, yes, font. Generally, the type of font you use matters as well, although not many people notice it. Choose a font that is suitable to the feel of the background, as well as the character. Never use the same types of fonts over and over in your wallpapers. Go into newer things. And another thing is never use too many different fonts in one wallpaper, 2 types should be good enough. We've covered up placing, contrast, and font. Next thing is background design. Stick to what you're good at if you can. Its not wrong to try making new types of backgrounds, but if you mess up, it wouldn't look good. I started out with Grunge, and then Abstract, and then Fractals. Now I can combine them to get a background I want. Trying to do scenery, but its kind of hard. I can do planets, stars, grass and whatnot but its still hard. There should be a balance between your character and background, never try to make one better than the other. Make both good if possible. And then theres size, try not using scans that are too large, or too little, otherwise it'll look weird, but its okay if you know how to use them well. I think I've missed out a few things, but lets leave that for next time, and on to the tutorial! XD

This time we're gonna learn how to give fonts a little metallic look. Or rather, 3D? Haha, I'm not sure how to put it, but here we go~

Step1: New document, any size.
Step2: Type something, make sure large enough. Choose a nice font for yourself.
Step3: Open up the blending options for the text layer, you can do this by right clicking the text layer, if I'm not mistaken. Or rather, Layer > Layer Style > Blending Options.
Step4: Select Drop Shadow and set its opacity to 85. Do the same for Inner Shadow and set its opacity to 52. (When I mean select, make sure its checked in the box) Select Outer Glow 11 and set its color black, Select and set Inner Glow to 27 and color should be white. Select Bevel and Emboss, set its SIZE to 0, and leave everything else be. Select Satin, and set its opacity to 29, color should be black. Color Overlay (set to lighten from the drop down box and opacity 100), and change the color to the color of your choice. Select Stroke, and set its size to 1, opacity 100, and color black. You'll get used to this many things >_>"
Step5: Voila, happy with your results? Good, save it. XD But of course, there are more effects, will elaborate on it more next time. *is tired typing* Onto my own blog! Thanks for reading and tagging!

Story aout a young christian man...

2005-11-30T02:01:00.000+08:00

A young man had been to Wednesday night Bible Study. The Pastor had shared about listening to God and obeying the Lord's voice.The young man couldn't help but wonder, "Does God still speak to people?"
After service he went out with some friends for coffee and pie and they discussed the message. Several different ones talked about how God had led them in different ways. It was about ten o'clock when the young man started driving home. Sitting in his car, he just began to pray, "God...If you still to people speak to me. I will listen. I will do my best to obey." As he drove down the main street of his town, he had the strangest thought to stop and buy a gallon of milk. He shook his head and said out loud, "God is that you?" He didn't get a reply and started on toward home. But again, the thought, buy a gallon of milk. The young man thought about Samuel and how he didn't recognize the voice of God, and how little Samuel ran to Eli. "Okay, God, in case that is you, I will buy the milk." It didn't seem like too hard a test of obedience. He could always use the milk. He stopped and purchased the gallon of milk and started off toward home. As he passed Seventh Street, he again felt the urge, "Turn Down that street." This is crazy he thought and drove on past the intersection. Again, he felt that he should turn down Seventh Street. At the next intersection, he turned back and headed down Seventh. Half jokingly, he said out loud, "Okay, God, I will". He drove several blocks, when suddenly, he felt like he should stop. He pulled over to the curb and looked around. He was in semi commercial area of town. It wasn't the best but it wasn't the worst of neighborhoods either. The businesses were closed and most of the houses looked dark like the people were already in bed. Again, he sensed something, "Go and give the milk to the people in the
house across the street." The young man looked at the house.
It was dark and it looked like the people were either gone or they were already asleep. He started to open the door and then sat back in the car seat. "Lord, this is insane. Those people are asleep and if I wake them up, they are going to be mad and I will look stupid." Again, he felt like he should go and give the milk. Finally, he opened the door, "Okay God, if this is you, I will go to the door and I will give them the milk. If you want me to look like a crazyperson, okay. I want to be obedient. I guess that will count for something but if they don't answer right away, I am out of here." He walked across the street and rang the bell. He could hear some noise inside. A man's voice yelled out, "Who is it? What do you want?" Then the door opened before the young man could get away. The man was standing there in his jeans and T-shirt. He looked like he just got out of bed. He had a strange look on his face and he didn't seem too happy to have some stranger standing on his doorstep. "What is it?" The young man thrust out the gallon of milk, "Here, I brought this to you." The man took the milk and rushed down a hallway. Then from down the hall came a woman carrying the milk toward the kitchen. The man was following her holding a baby. The baby was crying. The man had tears streaming down his face. The man began speaking and half crying, "We were just praying. We had some big bills this month and we ran out of money. We didn'thave any milk for our baby. I was just praying and asking God to show me how to get some milk." His wife in the kitchen yelled out, "I ask him to send an Angel with some. Are you an Angel?" The young man reached into his wallet and pulled out all the money he had on him and put in the man's hand. He turned and walked back toward his car and the tears were streaming down his face. He knew that God still answers prayers.

This is a true story. Well, ummm... I got this story from my friend... he or she send this e-mail message to me. I read and then got touched by this story.Honestly, I almost cry out. hahah ><. 'God always listen to prayers!' God Bless everyone =)

An exceptionally noisy day...

2005-11-26T19:50:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was fine, no interruptions and such. Well, the movie was really good, although some factors are missing, like the tournament losing its 'action'. No point complaining, its good, no regrets. The movie was still based on the plot originally in the book, which was good. Before the movie we ate at KFC. (forgot to pay Greg back >< sorry) And before that we waited in front of Cineplex for everyone to arrive. And before that, well, Burt picked me up, and I handed him the food my mom wanted to give him, and gave him back his GC, since my mom said it was rude to keep it so long here.

Hm, back to today. Woke up, came online, chatted with Min. Disconnected, online, disconnected, online. You get my point, don't you? Did my work, one being the translation, one being the codes I've compiled. Hacked some more, did a bit more on item translation. A bit difficult, cuz I can't access the dictionary online. Got it done around 12. I was on and off then, so meh. Candice confronted me this morning, and we chatted for a bit. Went okay I suppose. Just feels a bit weird.

Everytime I try to open PS, the signal dies off and everything shuts down. I think my RAM can't support it anymore, and I need to empty out some stuff in the system. Told my dad about it, and he simply grunted, as usual.

My worker's kids arrived today. Making the total of satanic kids in the house 6. So if you were here, you'd probably need some earmuffs. They are constantly running around, beside me, behind me, eh, you get the drill. Some people came to fix the A/c this afternoon, so I found it a little difficult to sleep. Woke up around 5, took an early dinner. And watched as my parents went out around 6.

Really, net is really unstable right now. Sometimes its on, sometimes its off. Well, yeah, its probably that way the whole of Brunei and I'm probably better off compared to the people who can't go online at all. So yeah, I guess I'll bear with it. If I get cut off, I'll probably redo my work, and resume doing other things. Hopefully, I can make it to the ball tomorrow, if its still on.

Sorry if the blog is a bit dull, I'm supposed to blog a tutorial..but maybe not this time. Tomorrow perhaps. Good night, and have a nice day. Hope your day goes better than mine. Though I suppose mine's not the worst.

Hiii =D

2005-11-23T03:43:00.000+08:00

Halooo!!!! =D it's been awhile that i havent come to blog any of the blogspots, and also taggies. >.<>_>" I edited something with photoshop, and also blogskin. So here are the blogskins I made... well I don't whether it's nice, just to show you guys =) hope they wouldn't look so bad =)

http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=64625&action=Preview
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=64847&action=Preview
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=66883&action=Preview
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=67626&action=Preview
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=70031&action=Preview

Hehehe, =) after viewing those blogskins, tell me what do you think about it? xP and give some comments so I could get improve xD. And here! http://rainmin.minitokyo.net/ ! Hahah, Yesh Vin also have one, cuz I just joined it few months ago. I love ALL his grapics! hahah xP he's so~ artistic >_>" I wish I was him T.T hahah xP And here my Image goes~ http://img457.imageshack.us/img457/5553/homev27ia.jpg it's still incompleted~ So gimme some ideas how to make it if you don't mind xP hehehe. I'll blog about the tutorial of the glossy butten if anyone wants it xD. So I guess that's all? =D take care everyone!! O yesh, wish me can go for the movie on 25th >.<. I'm trying to beg my mom to go~ la de da~

Another day, another tutorial.

2005-11-21T19:02:00.000+08:00

Okay, let's get started immediately shall we folks? Since I already blogged at LRW's, I shall now just blog a tutorial here. I wonder which shall I blog about? *thinks hard*

Okay, first one. How to turn ridiculously ugly and grainy blur scans into better looking brighter ones. Simple. I'll try making it simple. If you have a blur image(Like one taken from a phone-cam), and want to make it clearer, this will help a bit, I suppose.

Step 1: Grab your scan/image, whether you've extracted it from another image or something and copy it onto another new canvas.
Step 2: With your scan/image selected, press Ctrl+J twice.
Step 3: On the copy above the original, as in the second one. Go to Filter->Blur->Gaussian Blur and set it to at least 4.0 to 5.0.
Step 4: Still with the same layer selected, change its transparency to Overlay.
Step 5: Select the topmost layer, and simply change it's transparency to Color.
Step 6: Either Flatten your image, or select the topmost layer and press Ctrl+E until all layers are merged. Depends on which you chose to do, results will vary.

Now, does it still look grainy? If yes, repeat the steps, only use a lesser amount when doing Gaussian Blur, about 2.0 or 3.0 I suppose. Hopefully that was helpful. (works for me, i'm not sure about you though @@")

Okay, next one. *thinking of what to do next* Ah yes! Simplest 3D works. Not the advanced one though, for that you'd need Photoshop 7, and I know Manzy has it. But Photoshop 7 lacks a few functions in 8 CS and 8 CS2. Okay, so this effect should be applicable in all Photoshops, I guess. >_>"

Step 1: Create a BLACK background. Any size is fine.
Step 2: Filter->Render->Lens Flare and place it anywhere in the document. Do a few of these, but not too much. At least 1 to 4 I guess, and don't place them too near each other, if you'd like try placing them in the corners.
Step 3: Do a Filter->Sketch->Chrome. Details should be 10, and Smoothness can range from 0 to 3, depends.
Step 4: Filter->Distort->Wave, and hit Randomize a few times. You'll get a random wavy thingie. If you're not happy with something simple like this, you can try other effects like Twirl.
Step 5: Hit Ctrl+U, and select Colorize. Any color would do. And then Ctrl+B, and do a color balance, play around until you get a color you like.
Step 6: Okay, now, if you're happy with it, leave it alone. If you're not, and if you only did 1 or 2 lens flares, duplicate the current layer and Go to Edit->Transform->Flip Horizontal/Vertical. And set the blending mode to either Overlay, or Soft Light.
Step 7: Save, and do what you want to it. Maybe even try the other stuff I had in the other tutorials.

And remember always save it as JPEG unless you are working on a few layers and you're not done, then you save it as PSD! ><

Okay, I'm done. XP *runs along and does his other stuff* Hope this was helpful!

Here again!

2005-11-17T12:01:00.000+08:00

Well, no tutorials this time I suppose n_n" ? Haha, well, I was planning to make this a normal blog as possible. Okay, so maybe this time I'll share a little photoshop trick again? Pretty simple I suppose. But before that I'd like to blog about my weird dream I had two nights ago. @@"

Kay so in my dream, it was many years in the future. Where, er, me and Min are a married couple with two kids, with the boy being 7, and the girl being 4. >_>" Don't laugh. I'm a designer, and Min works in some kind of studio doing sound effects and music effects and whatnot. Son is already schooling, and daughter hasn't.

The dream started off at dinner time, where the two kids are bickering at each other. After dinner, my so called son went up to his room to play computer games. And a few hours passed quickly, without doing anything much and it was already their bed time. So Min and me went up to our son's bedroom telling him to shut the PC off and sleep, and he said he would soon. And then went to our daughter's room, read her a story and she dozed off. After that Min took her shower and I waited for my turn, and then after she came out I took mine. After that, we went to sleep. But around 1am in the morning, our daughter came into the room and told us she didn't want to sleep alone. So we let her sleep in between. After a while I decided to go to the bathroom. After I came out my daughter was already sleeping on my pillow in my place. So I left her for a while and went to check on my son. He fell asleep on the table so I took a blanket and covered him with it. Went to get spare pillow and blanket and slept in my bedroom, but on the floor, cuz I think I didn't want to wake my daughter up. >_>" After falling asleep, I woke up, because I found Min lying down on top of me. >_>"" So we just slept on. And after a while again, I felt something else next to me and it was my daughter. - -" Weird. So everyone has a floor. So when morning came, during breakfast, I told them that they all had nice comfty beds but they chose to sleep elsewhere, like the floor and table. So my daughter scolded me and said I slept on the floor as well. Son was sneaking off to play again, and Min scolded him because he hasn't done his homework yet and he has to go to school soon. (I have no idea why we're awake so early) He went off to do his work and then me and my daughter were talking about how scary Min was XD Then Min called me from behind and hit me with a frying pan and then I woke up - -"..Well..weird? I guess so XP Well, I dunno why I decided to blog about this but yeah, haha, it was a bit funny when I woke up, I laughed to myself about it ><

Kayyy, now, short tutorial. Cel-shading or whatnot. In other words, you can change 'real' images into cartoonish images. Not perfect, but an interesting effect nonetheless.

Step 1 - Open up an image. Not too big or it might cause lag.
Step 2 - Copy the layer by clicking CTRL+J.
Step 3 - Uncheck the visibility of the top layer, as in the copy by clicking on the small eye.
Step 4 - Make sure the bottom layer is selected as the currently active layer. Go to Blur->Smart Blur. Set the quality to High if you want good results and set the next pop-down menu to Edges Only. Change the settings until you think it's 'okay'. Not too detailed or grainy.
Step 5 - Press CTRL+I to invert the colors. Don't worry too much if it looks a bit too weird now.
Step 6 - Still on the bottom layer selected, select Filter->Artistic->Cutout and play around until it looks good and not too weird. Usually, the settings preferred are 2, 4 and 2 respectively. When you're satisfied, click OK.
Step 7 - Make the top layer visible again, and make sure its the currently active layer.
Step 8 - Filter->Blur->Gaussian Blur, and settings should be 5 pixels and above, or according to preference.
Step 9 - CTRL+SHIFT+F and then leave the opacity at 100%, select Darken from the drop down menu.
Step 10 - Change the layer transparency to Multiply. If you don't like it, try other different transparencies.

I hope that wasn't too hard to understand @@"...Well, I hope it turns out well for you if you try it and you don't necessarily need 'real' images n_n" You can try different images and effects and see how it turns out! >< And last but not least, I'd like to thank Manzy for getting me the Bleach poster! XP Thanks! I'll try to get you something for Christmas~ XD Ta-ta, hope you can leave tags!

Here, and something else too!

2005-11-08T12:08:00.000+08:00

Well, I just finished blogging at DA. Was good, I got to blog again, but eventhough I've forgotten most of the things thats been happening to me it still feels good to blog.

I guess I'm missing out on a lot of things, especially everyone's progress. I guess I'm used to having the internet being so good I can't live properly knowing that its so slow and retarded right now. ><

Right, now what am I supposed to blog right here? Well, me and Min are doing fine together. We'll be entering our 6th month of being together on this 18th. That is if I'm not counting wrong >_>"

Okay, my signal seems to be dying again. I guess this entry might not go through. Eh - -" Its back again. Nevermind.

Okay just for fun, I guess I'll create my own tutorial XD How to make Grunge backgrounds in Photoshop~ This is one of the first few things I learned how to do on my own, but of course, as I've read other tutorials, there are other ways of doing this, I'll try to make it as simple as possible. Firstly, you'll need Grunge Brushes, you can download them from GreyCobra, or from DeviantArt.

Step 1: Create a new document, make sure the background is white. Any size is fine.

Step 2: Go to Filter -> Render -> Clouds

Step 3: Create a new layer by pressing Ctrl+Shift+N, and paint using your grunge brush, make sure you're painting in black. Go wild, paint like crazy, but don't over do it.

Step 4: Once you're done painting, change your brush to white, and create another new layer. Use a different kind of Grunge Brush if you'd like, and go crazy again.

Step 5: Repeat Steps 3 and 4, make sure you create a new layer before brushing again.

Step 6: Once you're happy with your work, it would be good to save at this point. Merge all the layers from the top to the bottom, do this by pressing Ctrl+E. Or just Flatten the image by going to the Layer dropdown menu.

Step 7(a): Now, there are different kind of effects you can apply to your background now. If you'd like a normal one color only background, do the following.

Step 8(a): First, press Ctrl+U, to open up the Hue and Saturation Menu, click on Colorize and set your settings until you get a color you desire. Play around for a while. Then, go to Layer->New Adjustment Layer->Color Balance. Play around with this too. Got the color you want yet? Good. Now you can Flatten the image again, and place whatever you want onto the background.

Step 7(b): If you'd like a fiery apocalyptic effect. Do the following.

Step 8(b): Ctrl+U, as usual. Do any color you want, it doesn't really matter. Now go to Image->Mode->Grayscale. Your Background should be in Black and White again. Now go to Image->Mode->Index Color. From the drop down menu, select Black Body and hit Ok. You should get a background that looks like its on fire or something. To finish up, go to Image->Mode->RGB Colors. And then do what you want with the background.

Step 7(c): Now, for the last kind of background effect. (Yes, theres more, but this is it for now, I'm a tad tired from all the typing) Multi-colored background effect. Do the following.

Step 8(c): No, this time you're not required to do Ctrl+U. Go to Layer->New Adjustment Layer->Selective Color. Play with Black, White and Neutral. Make sure the Background isn't too bright and messy looking. Now, Layer->New Adjustment Layer->Color Balance until you get a color you desire. Create a new layer, and select the Gradient tool, get a mix of 2 or 3 colors that you like and drag in a \ or / direction. Right click on your layer and change your layer transparency to either Soft Light or Overlay, to your preference. Nice effect, no? If you want, create another layer and do the same, only with a different set of Gradient colors, and do the same with the layer transparency. Voila! You're done.

Step 9: Obviously, save your result! Thanks for reading, hope its easy enough to understand. You'll have to do a lot of playing around to get the result you want! Watch out for more! XD (If I even bother to write anymore XP)

There, I'm done. Let me know if you have any problems, I might be able to help out. Well, thanks for reading, and have a nice day =) Tag please~

That's fucked up! (repost from some other blog)

2005-11-03T03:55:00.000+08:00

That's fucked up

Guy: turns to girl, "So, can we do "that"?"
Girl: "Can we do what?"
Guy: "You know, can I be your first, finally?"
Girl: "Um.....no."
Guy: "Why?"
Girl: "Because, 1. you have a girlfriend, who happens to be my friend......."
Guy: "So, if you don't tell, I won' tell."
Girl: "Besides that, I'm waiting for someone special. Someone that I want to be with for the rest of my life to be my first."
Guy: "I'm not special to you?"
Girl: "You're my friend. That's all."
Guy: looks forward and keeps driving.

5 minutes pass.......

Guy: starts to run his hand up the girl's thigh.
Girl: moves his hand, "Don't touch me?"
Guy: tries to kiss her.
Girl: screams, "Would you stop."
Guy: continues trying.
Girl: moves to the back seat.

Guy: parks on an abandoned street and gets in the backseat with the girl. Starts to kiss her.
Girl: pushes him off and scoots over, "Please, don't do this."
Guy: "Don't do what, I know you want it, I can see it in your eyes." Moves over to her and starts to unbutton her pants.
Girl: pushes him harder and says, "No, don't."
Guy: getting aggravated, punches her and tells her to stop "playing hard to get".
Girl: crying, continues to fight.
Guy: punches her harder, pulls her pants off, and holds her down.
Girl: screams as he penetrates her, "NO, please don't do this to me!"
Guy: puts his hand over her mouth.

An hour passes.........

Guy: pulls back and wipes himself off.
Girl: sits on the corner of the seat, sobbing.
Guy: looks at her and says, "You better not tell anybody about this. If you're really my friend, you won't tell anybody about this. You know I love you." He reaches out his hand to touch her cheek.
Girl: pulls back, "Just take me home, now."
Guy: says, "Alright." Gets in the front seat and drives her home.

2 months later.........
Girl: "Doctor, what's wrong with me. I haven't had my time of the month in 2 months."
Doctor: looks at her, "You haven't been having your "time" for a reason."
Girl: looks at him and says, "Why?" dreading the answer that she was sure to receive.
Doctor: "You are pregnant."
Girl: faints.The story gets out that she is pregnant, and people start looking to the Guy. He claims that it isn't his because she was sleeping with every guy in the school(which was a lie). He goes to her and tells her, "I'm telling you, if you lie to people and say that I raped you, I'll kill you.

"The Girl is completely devastated. First, he took her virginity and got her pregnant....then he lied about it. So completely depressed......the girl commits suicide by drug overdose.......

Girls, if this story touched you, repost it as "That's Fucked up"
Guys, if this story touched you, repost it as "I Would Never Do Anything Like That"

a short story..

2005-10-06T15:08:00.000+08:00

A short story.....

'There was a person who was crying at the port, because she broke up with someone, then a strange saw her and asked her why she was crying. After the stranger heard her story, instead of consoling her, laughed at her and said: You lost someone who doesn't love you, but he lost someone that loved him very much. He lost more than you did. Why are you crying for him? Hes the one whos supposed to be crying because he lost someone who loved him.'

This is the story that I got from some websites. It was in Chinese, and Vin translated it into English (hahah you're sooo perfect xD). I kind of agreed with what the stranger said, 'Hes the one whos supposed to be crying because he lost someone who loved him.' However, everyone would be sad because of losing someone that they are in love with... I'd agree of that too. But we can try to think of the way which is abit different from that; he or she had lost someone who loved them so much, that should be the sadness of theirs but not yours... Ofcourse, we have our own emotion since we're living here. Emotions are uncontrollable, if you don't think of more possitive ways, you would just feel like living in dullness, lifeless. I learnt a new small lesson today, just from this short and simple story. You could have complains or comments with this entry~ kekek~ xP

By the way... here is the new layout... hope it don't look so dull, hehehe. Will be changing it after while, or after I get bored with it, kekek xP. Anyway... I'm off to sleep now... It's already 12 something in the midnight, kekek xP don't bomb me yeah~ xP Take care everyone! CiaoZz!!! =D *wave and run away*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

2005-10-02T03:16:00.000+08:00

!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

kekek~ yesh, I'm blogging in school right this time... too boring nothing to do, had been off-ing in home for days. cos I can't online, due to the fact that I have to study for my final exam... T.T misshhh you guys... well~ guess what??? I feel Hungreeeeeeeeeeeee >.<>.< ahhah~ xP I'm going home!! school is dismissing~ kekekek~ *waiting for the time* hmmm~ Oh Yeaaaaaaaa, Here! THE BEST OF WISHES TO ABY AND MICHLLE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! xD kekeke! *HUGs* heheh =D wish you guys having nice nice birthday yeahhh =D

la de da~

2005-09-30T19:18:00.000+08:00

La de da~

Okay, so that wasn't such a brilliant title. But heck, I couldn't come up with something better @@"...

First off, sorry for not blogging and tagging. Its been a while, and I kinda missed reading everyone's blogs T_T..and I kinda missed reading tags and tagging as well...

Okay, so enough of that. Erm, I've been fine. Except the fact that you'll be seeing me less online now. Ahhhh, Blogger won't accept what I've blogged for DA! Or rather..it won't load.

Okay, so what have I been doing when I can't go online? Well, for one, I've been reading a lot. >_> I've been reading Dan Brown books a lot. One of them being Digital Fortress, and another is Angels and Demons. Both are relatively interesting, but I'm yet to be done with Angels and Demons. Fresh books from the library XP Digital Fo
VinVin: Digital Fortress is about NSA, an agency in the USA, a very low profiled one. Involved with communications, national security, and all the way to decrypting emails and stuff from all over the world. Weird, but yeah, its a real agency. And Angels and Demons is about...the Catholic Church..and Science. As far as I've read, its about a group called Illuminati, a group of people, mainly scientists against the Catholic Church, because..er..the Catholic Church, the OLD Catholic Church burned scientists on steaks because they claimed science was taboo or something. >_>" Well, most of these stories are based on the real world, and are really well written.

Asides from reading..studying, doing my homework, photoshopping..and..and endless effort of trying to fix my internet T_T...Well, its still giving me a headache, but who cares. @@" I guess this should suffice for now, as I'm running out of things to say. XD Well, thanks for reading anyways. Lets see if it would let me head over the my Bravejournal to do one last entry for tonight.

Day wents.... =)

2005-09-23T12:38:00.000+08:00

Day wents.... =)

Ah Yesh Here! Blogging about today~ won't blog much~ cos I know some others might wanna blog about it too =) I was about late for the school, and the Mr. Khei was again began his fire in class. No many student like him, because he's abit... how you say that? ummm... lo so in chinese? @@" haha don't know how to say it in english~ Paisehhhh >.< hahah~ but I somehow understand the anger of his; he respect and give ways to students, but not even one would try to respect him. I would like to respect him tho~ I went for my duty after see-ing his face, cos I know what he gonna say... "chang min, ure late for your duty again." so I quicklt take my broom and go down, so I don't have to listen what he's going to repeat xP kekek~ I respect him abit tho~ kekeke~

Borrowed my friend's comic "Love for Venus" during maths period... it was relief... teacher didn't come, so all of us do anything we like~ keek~ and and and!! Suzuna is DAMNNNNNN cute!!! xD I sooo and that Eichi too! hehehh! x3 and we don't have MIB period~ so I can run over earlier! xD and I got to meet Vin, Zy, Aby and michelle themo! Wheeeeeeeeeee! xD you know who I saw first? At first I was quite nervous walk into sgs... and then I see Jasper was sitting at the bunch there, so I thought they're also there. But non of the them were there... so I try to walk near to the hall... and I heard the door open, and... Zy came out! and Michelle behind her! hahah xD and wave wave~ Michelle drag me to the door side, and then I saw Vin look sooooo Bored xP hahah~ and he quickly went down after Michelle wave to him xP I tricked him that I skip class, and then he show his "how could you skip class" look xP then I tell him I trick him, and he trick to Zy too~ then Zy was like "Har? You skip!? Go Back to Your Class!!!" hahah xD Wait for Jo come around half pass two like that, and we went to Gadong for somethings, and come back, and watch them practice for awhile, and then go Aby house SWIM! xD I was able to go home by half pass six. My car just right behind me as I reach CHMS @@" so cool~ hahah xD

And now~ my parents and my brother went for movie tonight, the whole house is so damn quiet now~ The baby cousin just Pop-ed a water balloon in my room, and it cause my book wet... and I'm not able to study for it = =" not now and forever~ cos it was Ink!!!! and now the hand writting looks so messed T.T I can only see those blur blur dots in my book pages... I'm going to have that test on saturday~ and I'm not able to study for it T.T you know what~ he wet my book~ and he cry instead of I cry = =" how cool~ he cry for me issit? = ="

Sorry god~ I didn't go church today, well~ I don't dare to go church tonight since I didn't know I have some practice with my group last week ><><

Worried?

2005-09-15T10:43:00.000+08:00

Of course I was. I wonder what kind of person wouldn't be worried of someone they really care about. Anyways, yesterday, after having my lines cut off, I was still worried about Min, but I really couldn't do a thing. I called her house at 8, before being cut off, and her dad picked up the phone. He was worried, but confused, by the tone of his voice. I left a msg at Min's yahoo, saying that, I want her to call me when she gets back. So I still expected that call. I waited till 10, called her house again, her mom answered, and sounded as confused as her dad was, and worried as well. I think her parents thought she was probably out with me...So I waited, till, I suppose, past 11.30 close to 12? After that I went to sleep.

Had a nightmare you know? Something kinda weird, and sad..I dreamt that we, as in the usual people, went out. Then Min said she wanted to go somewhere, Pamela showed up, and took Min away, Min didn't seem to mind at all. I went around with my friends for a while, and got worried and decided to look for Min. Saw her at West Street, surrounded by a bunch of guys, and Pamela was there too, all so happy. I saw Min wrap her arms around another guy's arm, and kissed him on the cheeks, and then the lips...And I screamed. First scream, she heard me, turned to me and grinned, second scream, Pamela turned and grinned, third scream, I couldn't hear my own voice anymore. Woke up all sweaty, dry tears on my face, went to get a drink, prayed and went back to sleep. It was around 4am then.

Woke up this morning at 11, washed my face, came online. Read Min's offline messages, and thanked god she got home safely. Left MY offline messages and then chatted with Manzy and Tan, after a while of blog-surfing, went to Min's blogspot, read her blog and felt..a little..angry. Maybe more than angry, but I'm keeping as calm as I am. I dunno what this feeling is inside of me, but I'm praying to god to let it die before I can't control it anymore...Well, signing off here. Thanks for reading and tagging. Ciaoz~...

insert amusing title here

2005-09-13T11:27:00.000+08:00

Today went fine. Practice was good. The planning went well. Jess showed up after that, and then erm, after everything my dad took us to Youme for lunch. We talked about some stuff, and I had a heavy lunch while everyone else had light - -"...

Erm and then we went to Menglait Badminton Hall, Renjie and some others were there already, me and Larrie already warmed up in school, however my reaction timing was still slower than usual >_> After a while, when everybody has turned up, we started the tourney. First match was Renjie and Teck Foung, and then Paul and Jong. Paul and Renjie managed to get to the Semi-Finals. Then after that it was yours truly and Jerome, I pulled through as well, Sun Seng and Larrie, Larrie pulled through. Then I went up against Paul T_T And lost. Renjie beat Larrie. And Paul beat Renjie, so Paul took the trophy home. After that we played a few friendly matches, it was interesting, I got to exercise and break some sweat XD

Got home, am right here right now, chatting with Min, cuz my connection somehow is horrible today since it was left on since yesterday morning. Thats one disadvantage I guess XD Hmm..I hope I haven't left anything out..Oh yes! I'm looking forward to Wednesday's outing, I hope there won't be any INTEREFERENCES. Really now, I'm praying really hard. I hope Min would earn her wings soon @@"...I'll get to test my wings after Form5 I suppose. Don't really know where I'm gonna study after that, if my results are satisfying enough...><

I guess thats all for now, now I have to figure out what to blog about at my own journal >_>"...*ponders* Thanks to the taggers for keeping this site alive XD

2005-09-13T04:25:00.000+08:00

HaPpy HoliDay.... can I have my wings free?? hmmmmm....

Well, first here~ wish everyone enjoy the holiday. heheh~ everyone is out now~ to dance and badminton, well hope everything goes well~ hahah~ just finish the chrno crusade that borrow from Vin, kinda like it. The story is about a girl and a demon and something something, hahah~ and I like the opening theme~ it sounds like told us never give up.

Hmmm~ kinda boring at home, havent finish my entry in Rainminz, kinda forgot what I wanna blog actually, haah~ let me continue once I remember what I wanan do there~ xP. So... Holiday... need to go "somewhere" that I think Vin and Zy would know the place I mean. Well but I don't feel like going there since I want my freedom that I could fly here and fly there~ hahah not neccesary FLY but at least I just want my freedom? How I wish I could just change my name and change my look by surgery, and just report that I'm dead~ Wow~ I wonder how would I become? loL~

I gonna have my test 4 after this holiday, and the first day after the holiday I will have my Science test 4, so I have to study for it since I haven't work hard on everything everysince the new teacher came, luckily our science teacher found the new teacher is kinda "useless" and so she came back to teach us~ hahah! xD so mean~ hahah jkjk =b whoots~ I want my test 4 result to be good, not only pass mark but at least 60 plus? I wish~ heheh~ and so my teacher won't blablabla me at the same time = =" start work hard for now, I gonna be free after my final exam! xD and I think I'll be off to study when it comes my final exam~ @@" I guess it would be two weeks? hahah~ final exam will be on the middle of october, and test 4 is at the end of september I think? My brain is full of test date now = ="

Today is monday, tomorrow will be tuesday... hmmm, I think we gonna swim again tomorrow~ xD can't wait~~~ I wanna swimmmmmm hahah~ so envy when watching them swimming >.<>< hahah, and hmm I guess this entry would be quite short, but this here will be the ending part of this entry~ hehehe~ sory for the short entry~ and hmmmm~ hope everything goes fine~ take care everyone~ =D

Retreat, Spiritual Growth...and Mental Growth.

2005-09-03T19:30:00.000+08:00

So we're back from the retreat, and it was good. Really good, compared to staying at home doing nothing. Its fun being around friends, laughing along with them, hitting them on their shoulders, and expecting they won't hit you back XP

So the day itself was fine, except I had a tummy upset in the afternoon. So we gathered and were introduced to the staff, some of them we know, well actually we know almost all of them, Greg wasn't there though >_> Peh. The staff were there to care for our every needs (Not really XD), they cleaned up after us and had to keep us comfortable.

So it begins, with the house rules, and then the talk. Oh yeah, we had snacks too, biscuits and some weird-ass fruit punch - -" Chris dipped his biscuits into the fruit punch, which was weird. And Louie was dared into doing the same, except in a larger quantity, so he puked. XD

First talk was with Aubrey, about Jesus Christ, and how he is real to you. Since some people make him real through the miracles he performed, while some make him real, by thinking that he is human, all in all, still human, since he went through almost every single thing we go through everyday, except resurrection. >_>" Imagine someone you know pop out of the coffin...comical.

Right after every talk we are to reflect inside the Disco room, otherwise known as the Discovery room, where its all dark. The Lord is placed before us, and there are candles lit, and the room is bloody cold! ><>_> So there are the different kinds of people, and Adrian was all of them, and is now the Holy Guy XD Soooo right after that go mandiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~The girls get to go Sister Shirley's flat to take their bath >_> and we get the bloody faculty toilets. Yuk. COLD water T_T...But it was fun waiting for our turns to bath XD We told ghost stories, and we watched and played card games...XD Also shared stores about the old SGS! The old CHMS! And catching up with lost times, seems like most of us knew each other as kids >_>"

So right after that I saw Manzy walking over in PJs (after my bath) taking pictures of us as we marched back to the Parish to sleep!

(To be continued...Running out of time - -")

Aitz, continued from the other day. So we went into the Parish Hall, cleaned up our sleeping areas and prepared our beds. But we never really went to sleep, so we stayed up till 1am or so playing with Aubrey's laptop, playing cards and making fun of Aubrey by calling him a Fat Russian XD Then Uncle Sam came down a few times, scolding us, telling us off to go to bed and whatnot. While the girls came down a few time to get a few drinks. We were actually supposed to watch some movie or something on Aubrey's laptop but we couldn't cuz of some other reason that I forgot. The girls slept at 3am btw, read Manzy's blog to know what they actually did.

Now, next day, we had a confession after breakfast. And a talk right after that, about relationships, girls, sisters, parents and then one specifically only about parents. Right after that talk we got to open letters from the people who wrote to us, I got 3, one from my parents and two anonymus. Went up to the disco room for one last time, reflected and went to write our reply for our parents. Some of us wrote extra for our friends, I wrote one for Jess and Manzy, last minute n_n" so its a little dull and untidy.

Right after that, parents came, supposed to be a surprise, but most of us knew beforehand >_> Went down, showed them the letter, Manzy snuck away to the toilet as her dad read her letter, while my mom cried after reading the letter and my dad cried after my mom finished crying @@" I also told them about Min, her being my girlfriend, and I got a long lecture from my dad. I forgot to mention my brother, Aaron was there as well - -"...So that makes 3 Aarons in the Parish at THAT precise moment.

Went to mass, my dad's first mass in 5 or more years. Aaron, my brother ran around annoying people, eating his Keropok and dropping them around, and my mom got Bryan to take care of him, and then when the mass was over (the father forgot to ask us to go in peace XD) and then went home! Haha, so thats that for the retreat *goes off somewhere else* Thanks to the taggers for tagging~ XD

Sunday~! Domenica~!

2005-08-29T04:56:00.000+08:00

Hiiiii Everybodehhh~! in primo luogo di tutti...*mwakz* and *Hugz* to Vin and Everyonez!! Mishh u guysshhhhh!! =D Vin, Manzy, Jessie, Mich, Aby, Jo~ (although some of them wont be reading the blog) work hard yea~! exam's on lunedi~! study smart~! =D my malay test is tomorrow T.T hopefully I'll be studying later~ hahah xP Just woke up and straight away on the computer, Oh my computer is getting slower~ I feel like wanna reformat my computer, cos everything is sooo lagging = =" but is not pendium 2's speed, don't worry = ="

went to Vin's house yesterday, abit scary... to me~ I mean >.<" actually wanna ask Vin something about Math, but ended up he's too tired and we asked him to rest, Manzy and Jessie playing and "do something" to his computer~ hahah! but ended up "done nothing" to his computer xD I'd tried the cheese cake that made by his mummy~ is soooooo delicious~ I left a small piece there, but I don't see anything when I back to it~ O.o and night we went to the sas's church, to watch the band. Oh man it just like concert! and yea~ it's suppost to be concert thingie, but too bad is in church, cos is too small, but yeah~ still darn nice ;D I think my church is abit slow... they don't have anything like drums or guitar, there's only a Piano~ nevermind~ at least enjoy it~ right? hahah and then back home around 10:30pm or something after Vin's dad came and pick him up at sgs. Today's not bad~ I feel like wanna go out again T.T lol! I think that's all~ feel like wanna sleep again = =" I thought I'd just sleep for one whole half day? I mean more than 12 hours? hahah xD Ciaozz everyones =D Study hard! I'll be studying later~ (maybe xP) xD have nice day =D

Hmm~What to blog abt here?

2005-08-24T19:12:00.000+08:00

Since I already blogged at DA, might as well blog here, right? Haha, well, the thing is...I have no clue to what I should blog about here >< !! *deep sigh* Other than that... My dinner today consists of - fried chicken, steamed taufu with minced meat, and vege. XD Oooo, yes, I shall post the car accident poem I wrote the other day over here XD Its not really funny lar, but still haha, some people were shocked since I use Ah Beng language to write this~ *looks for this folder* Ah, found it! 'Car Accident' drive drive, dun drive fast, later you find your whole body in cast, drive drive, accident lar, dun later bang another car oh god, its another car accident, see the tiang also bent, blood blood, gore on the floor, who ask you to knock on death's door all hell 'brake' loose, see you run over the goose, aiyah aiyah, ai si liao, you still ran over that poor cow, drive lar drive lar, drive fast to the zoo, later lose head what to do? aiyah aiya, no head liao, later kena lau bu tiao! roads roads, dangerous roads, look look more dead goats, dun run into that lamp post, later die liao become ghost~ stupid moron kopi o license, want to drive but no common sense, who wants to accept you into driving school, better go drown in a pool!! drift drift, drift somemore, speedster to the core, crash crash, crash somemore, dead to the core... this road is haunted, just don't be taunted, be careful, lookout, theres a ghost!but pls dun shout... monkey see, monkey do, think you can drive like your abu, actually cannot, still pai kia, see lar now you sim tia~ T_T dun drive and drink, you can lose your life in a blink, if still dun listen, still do, better go die la you! -END- Ehhh, nice or not? Hahaha, okay, now that thats done. Here are a few pics? Haha, hope they turn out well - -"

Me and Min above~Thanks to Manzy for the pic!

Larrie styled my hair~Not bad yah~? XD

Once again, its me~Taken at Swensen's on Jo's birthday, before watching the maid. Face looks a bit weird @@" Anyways, thats it for now~ XD See ya, enjoy, and have a nice day~Thanks to taggers btw =D

Nani? New blog? Haha~

2005-08-22T19:42:00.000+08:00

Hey people (if there are any humans reading this blog), Shin over here, blogging. (duh) Since I promised Min I would blog once she changes the layout, so here I am. Hoorah for me~ XD

Anyways, since Min already blogged about yesterday's events, it would be pointless for me to blog about it too @@"..And..nothing much happened today either.

Okay, scratch that. Let us discuss the supernatural. People see them, people don't see them, or people claim to see them. See, hear, listen, lets just say 'encountered' then. Okay, so some people have claimed that they have encountered these things. I, on the other hand, am not sure about that myself. Whether I really did encounter it, or whether it was a figment of my imagination, thats what I meant. The mind does play tricks on you sometimes, right? I do not want to upset anyone with my theories, or with my assumptions... But, saying that you see the supernatural around people is a bit...too much? I'd believe you if you said you saw it once, or twice. But saying that you've been seeing it around people you know, acting scared and all, but still wanting to challenge 'it' is a bit too weird for me. Furthermore, people ARE able to sense these things. I'm sure of that, the feeling of being watched, the cold feeling, cold sweating, dry winds...I dunno, maybe you're happy-go-lucky, or a momantai kind of person. But then, why act scared in the first place? @@" I'm not saying I don't believe. I do, maybe as much as you do, but I do need solid proof, since, I can't see it myself? I mean most of us can't. Like Burt-sensei said, assuming makes an ASS out of U and ME. Then again, I AM assuming, haha...I suppose you're pretty confused? Trust me, I'm confusing myself. Haha, okay enough about that. I think I have said enough.

This is one of the most 'soi' months of all for me, for this entire year. Projects, problems, time management problems, etc etc..Okies, Shin here, over and out! *waves and smiles* XD

Yay~~ xD i just watch 7swords~! xD

2005-08-22T13:49:00.000+08:00

Whooots~ I just watched 7swords today~ hahah~ with Vin and Burt~ actually not bad, but too much killing thingie~ u know~ it's kinda disgusting when you see the heads drop down from somebodies~ @@" But I Loveeee those Swords xD esp the sword which owned by the Only GIRL~! the sword is like~ can come out from the double side~ if you don't know how to control it~ you might have just KILLED yourself = =" but it's kewl xD haahh! there's one man whoes very calm~ I don't know how he did that~ even been so kind althought someone was trying to kill him? and I called him "du shu zai"(book worm) xP hahah~ cos he's always holding a... what's that? a paper? a book? xP hahah~ not sure of it~ wekeke~ and he never use his sword until the quite end... he sword is... um... wow~ made of gold? whooots~ i never know gold can be sword~! xD well~ we get in to the cinema around 4:45pm something, then it started at 5:00pm, and I heard Burt say that movie last for 2hours and 40minutes... so I think it ended by... 7:40pm?? haha~ xD and we went to pasar malam have dinner after the movie~ Oh Man~ I'm SOooooooooooooo guilty that I can't finish the RICEEE!! >. < soweee Burt~!!! Blame the spicy fishball @@" hahah~ xP ThanGx Belanja Burt~ xD next time belanja you guys too~ wekekek~ But I want my Pizza too~! >. < Burtttttttt~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Hahah~ well~ today was pretty normal too~ but I just woke up 9 something today, that's soooo Wooo~ how the hell could I woke up sooo early today??? and I feel kinda sleepy now = =" I wanna sleep~ hahah~ soon soon~ don't ask me to sleep now xP I'll sleep after blogging xP hahah~ yeah~ I did some layout~ but silly~ it cant be post in blogspot T.T I don't know Whyyyyy~ can anyone tell me??? @@" Irene Helpppp >. < bery mafan-ish @@"
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=58102&action=Preview this is the layout that I've been doing the WHOLE morning~ but I cant post it T.T tell me why~~ *sniff sniff* (can't face the truth that I cant post it (_```_) ) and So... I'd just look for This "Final Fantasy" blogskin and post it here~ Sigh~ so uselessssss... well~ I'll put it out once our Dearest Irene-chan done it for me~ I'm so ThankFul to You, Irene *staring at Irene with Shining eyeballshhh* xD hahah, she's so niceeee~ =D well, I think I'll just look for another nice and simple once...? hopefully we can make the font a little bigger? O.o hahah~ and I think this will be the end since Vin'd already blog one new entry xD then Yeah~! Nightz To EveryOne~! Mwah~! xD Take Careeee xD Heya~ xD

2005-08-18T12:53:00.000+08:00

Hey there~ i just came to my old bloggie... but I guess I should say this a new bloggie? hahah~ cos I didn't even use this~ the reason was I dunno how to do, until I see the Kewl blogspot of Irene's~ then start thinking to edit~ and I asked help from Vin, then he said can find those skins in http://www.blogskins.com~ hahah, I was like~ Huh~? really? I didn't know that xD then um... this is my second entry~ I guess it's pretty far away from my first entry~? lol~ no comments~ gonna go out with Burt, Manzy and her brother, and Vin after church around 9:40+ pm~ kewl~ I guess I can wait for it xD hahah~ and keep yourself safe... hell gate is opening by today, and completely open by tomorrow~ so the ghosts will come out by today~ everyone~! TAKE CARE!!! >< *Pray~~~~* *Amen.....*

2005-06-22T23:58:00.000+08:00

okay right um... this is my first blog? hahah so what am i going to do now? blogging? im still kinda blur with this blog ^^" anibody teach me pls?? Help Help~! lol~ just start it today... i didn't know why i wanna make up this blog @@" and what shall i do with this blog~? lol~ anyway~ let it be~ i'll update when there's something new ^^ so yea~ CiaoZz~ ^^w *waving GoodBye*

Vin & Min

It's been a while.

ゆめ。。。

Hmm

Well..

Okaa-sannn~...

Phoenix Down

Happy 21st Month dear!

Happy Valentine's Day.

Vin is on flight...

ByeBye

Cont'd Story. Still no Title XD

Happy Anniversay!!! XD

Testing : 1, 2, 3...

Hmm?

Eh? Lol..

Pitiful..

Another Year Gone By

Merry Christmas

Happy 18 Months to Dear~

Untitled

Blast

One Year, Five Months

Boku. Me. I. Saya. Ako. Aku. Watashi. Wo.

Happy Birthday MinMin

Happy Belated Anniversary

FOOTPRINTS in the SAND

Happy Belated 15 months~

Merdeka? O_o"

Merdeka

Yoshi~

Dragon Tiger Gate

Very Advanced Happy Birthday to Larrie!

ladeda~~ XP

Happy Anni~ ^-^

One Year

Things I want to do. Lol. Please Don't Laugh.

The Wonderful life? =b

Ooo..exams approaching.

Hm, been away for a month.

Coming into April~

Coming into April~

Coming into a new month

New blog entry~

Online~Online~

Red Packets!!!

Once in awhile, I'm back ^^"

Well, its kinda sad...

*uses Phoenix Down on this site*

Here's another one folks..

Story aout a young christian man...

An exceptionally noisy day...

Hiii =D

Another day, another tutorial.

Here again!

Here, and something else too!

That's fucked up! (repost from some other blog)

a short story..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

la de da~

Day wents.... =)

Worried?

*insert amusing title here*

Retreat, Spiritual Growth...and Mental Growth.

Sunday~! Domenica~!

Hmm~What to blog abt here?

Nani? New blog? Haha~

Yay~~ xD i just watch 7swords~! xD

uses Phoenix Down on this site

insert amusing title here